I am not sure really how to start this, but I will try my best. First off, I feel like I need to just vent and get all of my thoughts and feelings out on paper or digital record, whatever. Full disclosure, I am under the influence. Of what, I will not mention. Just know if I seem to be rambling, then you know the cause. That being said, I feel like I have so much to say that I really don’t know where to start. I suppose I could start with what primarily takes up all of my time and energy, that being my son, Asher. Let me preface this by saying that I am in no way complaining that my son takes up all of my time and energy. I can’t imagine my life without him. I want to give him all of my time and energy. I just sometimes feel I don’t have enough to give him. I feel like I’m not enough. I feel lacking in some way or other. I never feel like I do enough. There is always more to be done, more to learn, more to teach. I want my son to grow up to be a happy and fulfilled person. I know there is no such thing as a perfect childhood, but I want to give my son as close to perfect as possible. He deserves the world. His kindness and love he shows to everyone he meets is just awe-inspiring. He is my biggest role model. I think I said that before, but it is so true. Anyway, my fingers are becoming numb as I type this on my iPad. I guess I’m done blabbering for now. Goodnight and good dreams to anyone who happens to read this. And know that to anyone who wants to talk, I am here to listen. Thanks and bye for now.
Marissa M. ❤️❤️😚