The never ending story of my life

I am not sure really how to start this, but I will try my best. First off, I feel like I need to just vent and get all of my thoughts and feelings out on paper or digital record, whatever. Full disclosure, I am under the influence. Of what, I will not mention. Just know if I seem to be rambling, then you know the cause. That being said, I feel like I have so much to say that I really don’t know where to start. I suppose I could start with what primarily takes up all of my time and energy, that being my son, Asher. Let me preface this by saying that I am in no way complaining that my son takes up all of my time and energy. I can’t imagine my life without him. I want to give him all of my time and energy. I just sometimes feel I don’t have enough to give him. I feel like I’m not enough. I feel lacking in some way or other. I never feel like I do enough. There is always more to be done, more to learn, more to teach. I want my son to grow up to be a happy and fulfilled person. I know there is no such thing as a perfect childhood, but I want to give my son as close to perfect as possible. He deserves the world. His kindness and love he shows to everyone he meets is just awe-inspiring. He is my biggest role model. I think I said that before, but it is so true. Anyway, my fingers are becoming numb as I type this on my iPad. I guess I’m done blabbering for now. Goodnight and good dreams to anyone who happens to read this. And know that to anyone who wants to talk, I am here to listen. Thanks and bye for now.


Marissa M. ❤️❤️😚





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April 4, 2022

I’ve never been a parent. So feel free to ignore this.

There is a saying that is something like this, “The act of asking yourself if you are crazy is evidence that you are not.” Look at the way you write about your son. The love is obvious. He wouldn’t be any of the nice things if you weren’t doing a ton of great things for him. I’m sure you’re not a perfect parent, no one is. You want the world for him because of that love. Be kind to yourself.

April 4, 2022

@heffay thank you so much for your kind words. 😊❤️