Cheer?

I wish I had more Christmas Cheer. Instead, I’m on day two of pain from yesterday’s biopsy. I guess telling my father-in-law that we got stuff from the town hall was a big taboo because… well. we couldn’t afford anything.

“How do you have stuff at home? I thought you couldn’t afford to buy anything for them this year…” And I blurted it out, because HONESTLY?! We couldn’t afford anything. The kids got tons of clothes. One or two toys each, and then the stuff from my in-laws. Thank goodness for the in-laws. I surely didn’t want the man to feel like his ex-wife went overboard this year.

Basically because it’s like a competition every year of who can spend more money on the kids.

I don’t care if they get almost nothing for us, it’s not the point. Other wise I’d be extremely upset that the only thing I got was pillows, and chap stick that I’m allergic to. Instead, I’m quite thankful. I am excited to try the few things I can use, to put new pillowcases on my new pillows. && To fight Marc over them 😀

My in-laws are very generous. Sometimes I feel guilty that I have them. I can’t afford to spend a fraction of what they spend on us for gifts. I wish I could, but in reality? I can’t. I’m a bus driver. That’s just the way it is. First comes our kids, then comes the rest of the world. But we did do really good on our secret Santa gifts. They were quite happy. (spending $25-30 instead of $20 limit was worth it) I figure Meg didn’t really like the slipper socks, but I hope she liked the giftcard.