Hello again, old friend.
Every time I plan to come here and write I lack the drive and energy. Actually, that’s been my whole life lately. I have been nothing short of a lazy bum and I NEED to get my ass moving more. I just don’t know where to find the motivation.
I have lots of ideas of things I need and want to get done, but when it comes to actually doing them I don’t. Yesterday I had plans to clean out the backyard, trim some edges and pull some weeds, put down some cedar mulch and generally clean up a bit so I can sit outside and enjoy the space for once- but I stood in the doorway for 10 minutes and then decided to take a nap instead.
I took time to plan out my meals for a week and make a grocery list of the things I need to make all the meals- but haven’t done anything else. I have no desire or energy to cook for myself- especially when my job requires me to go and make meals for other people. The last thing I feel like doing when I come home on my “break” is make myself a meal.
I actually emailed this morning to set up an appointment with a financial counsellor to get my shit in order, so I guess that’s a good thing.
Ok, motivation gone.