I feel alone most of the time. I feel like most people have bad intentions. I have no true friends. It feels lonely. I get no text messages or calls. If I’m ever in a time of need I don’t have anyone to reach out to.
I crave friendships and desire romantic relationship but I’m too anxious to put myself out there. They have never worked out and I don’t feel good enough. I don’t know how to form relationships anymore but I’m trying to put myself out there again. Sometimes I feel like I’m autistic because I can’t form relationships, conversations are hard, and eye contact feels awkward/intense.
I’m just trying to focus on my career and education and if I meet anyone along the way it would be nice.
Note: We also had Pizza day yesterday at work.