questions to which there are no

” Like cliches littering the anecdote to which you are the pith, what would I mean without you? ” I LOVE IT!!! This was just *so* brilliant…

What I love most are all the ending lines. If you take all of those and put them together… those are the question I imagine you asking when you are truly in love. What would I mean without you? How could I shine without you? etc. RYN: This is a reponse from a long time ago. But all those crude compliments… they used to give me a bit of an ego boost at first. Now I just find them insults.

Its just insulting to think that I could be “wooed” or “swayed” or convinced to spend time with someone who hollars or calls me a “fine ass woman”. I want something more… someone that will put a little more effort into it than a crude yell.

It IS brilliant, you know. The word ‘pith’ will be more liberally sprinkled through my daily conversations from this moment! Indie

i really like this. im going to have to re read it a few times to fully grasp the meaning, but i can tell it is very clever. ryn: yah that would be funny if i told him to stop combing his hair and shaving. he obsesses over his hair almost more than i do. and dont worry, you’re not missing anything by not reading harry potter. honestly its nothing spectacular and its a poor excuse for fantasy.

ryn: ” It’s a weird thing. I love the lifeforce of being around activity and people, even if I don’t participate so much” i totally agree! and you’re right..you dont have to have money to give your children a good life. its just that im more comfortable now with higher living, growing up in a well off family. probably a lot of who i am stems from my up bringing–but thats okay…

so is this referring to an actual person or to an animal or to a place or something else? i could see how it could refer to either . either way, its very clever and i like it.

I like the question game. Have you ever played it? It’s especially fun when you play it with a member of the opposite sex that you are interested in because then some of the questions get VERRRRY interesting, lol.

so you have a brother. at least i learned something new about you. you must think I’m psycho not to tell me much about your identity. dont worry, i am psycho, so youre probably doing the right thing. either way, thanks again for your notes

what kind of lizards did you used to catch? i hope mine was ok.

the boys don’t talk much but my girl actually has a lot to say.

hi david. how are you>?

Hey! Glad to hear from you again. Thats too bad about the no internet. But yah the library is fun. I am actually going there in an hour or so. I need something good to read bedies the book I got which is an F Scott Fitzgerald book .I just can’t get into it..That thing about your eyes..that always happens to me when I get a cold. I get pressure behind my eyes and it makes my vision blurry. Its just

the pressure from my sinuses. It also clogs my ears and makes me feel dizzy. LOL

Two sisters and three brothers? I have three sisters and one brother. You have a big family too though. You’d fit in very well in Utah. LOL. I’m in the middle though, with two sisters older than me and my other sis and my bro younger than me. You seem like you’d be an oldest. Oldest kids are usually more supportive and nurturing and mature..

where have u been?

hey hon. I just wanted to say thanks for all the lovely supportive notes you’ve been leaving in my OD while I was doing the show. I appreciate each and every one of them. xo

thanks for the compliment, but i think you’re writing is far far far more elegant than anything i could conjure up.

I do the same thing. I start a million stories or reviews and I never finish them, for the most part. I just forget about them and focus my energy on other things. I sort of lose faith in them after a while, when at first they seemed so ingenious. I dont know, I dont have much faith in my writing. Im so emotional i think that most people would find my stories trite or stupid. Yeah you can’t force

someone to be meticulous. Like Tyler..he is the opposite of me when it comes to that stuff. he just doesn’t pay attentio to the small stuff. maybe i should volunteer somewhere. heaven knows where though. im glad its fulfilling for you.

your note was a while ago but ryn anyway.. your paragraphs have more meaning than my pages

😛 bacl 😉

Right, that’s what I meant… counceling by myself… that wasn’t really clear though. 😉 I don’t know. I think you might be right, but I kind of don’t want you to be. He really is good. At the same time, though, the guys I tend to be smitten with aren’t exactly class act. I fall for the jerks and flee from the gentleman. That’s why I want to talk to someone.

I mean, I know that that is pretty typical for young girls… but I don’t know how to overcome it. Maybe I won’t until I am ready to be in a long term, committed relationship. At the same time, though, I don’t need my heart broken anymore. Pete would have lead to a life of dissatisfaction. I would have been constantly frustrated and doubting myself.

I look at guys like Morgan and Dan and recognize how incredible they would both be as husbands and fathers. They would actually be there and be interested which is more than I could ever say for Pete. I shouldn’t be smitten with a guy that treats me like dirt. And yet, those boys who don’t treat me that way terrify the shit out of me. Thanks for your notes, btw.

in a previous note you mentioned or hinted that you liked NIN. thats awesome. and you said something about your age. how old are you? so you dont think trent would punch me in the face if i approached him? lol. i just dont want to be annoying or a pest.

ryn: I know on principle I shouldn’t have had to pay for it – my Mum fought it for two days with the fair commission people. Apparently we didn’t have a leg to stand on. Still, it’s a bit rude. xo

I was teased for my size when I was a kid too. They used to call me the “mouse”. I think that kind of mistreatment does a lot more damage than most people realize. I think it is partially to blame for my social anxiety. What does social anxiety feel like to you? I’m glad you agree about the porn. thing…that whole situation really hurt me. I can’t believe you actually read that whole conversation

You truly are altruistic. oh can read my restaurant review and give me constructive critisism

a couple weeks ago (when I stalked you and found you on myspace) I talked about you to Ali at work. isn’t that weird? it’s like a strange crossover between 2 different dimensions

Wow you’ve got a lot of notes on this entry. I find it so interesting that you don’t have a middle name either, because everyone I know has one. I guess the two of us are just cool and unique. I also think its awesome that you like NIN too.

Congrats on becoming an uncle!!!! Thats so awesome!!!. I’m glad to hear that everything turned out well. That seems kind of scary. I was reading a note you left a while ago about that movie. I’ve got to rent it. It sounds like something I’d like. Anyway, hope you’re doing good and congrats again.

Hello there:) Im glad to still find you here..Ive always loved your mind.Come visit me sometime:)Love always,

howz it!

yes i like strongbad, though its been a while since i watched it. anyway, you should write about the transience of everything. or..write about the selfishness of human nature…or…lonliness…or…powerlessness….or..sociall anxiety..etc.

“my own life has been one long line of obsessions” oh? do tell! what are you obsessions?

my web-sit is alycen.com but i need to configure it with the drupal account. it looks cool though. oh and i didn’t know that you never smoked a cigarette. me either. people like us are so rare. and yes, i am just a face in the crowd. being around so many other people negates my existance.

I hope you have fun at the movie with your sister. Let me know how it is. I was going to say something else but I forgot what it was so I’ll have to get back to you on that one. LOL. You never wrote about any of those topics I told you to write about. Write about anger. I don’t know…anyway…

What’s your MSN messenger? Mine is Klanstyke@hotmail.com. You should message me sometime. No pressure. Anyway my livejournal is AlycensTears. I’m going to work on the web-site soon!

Yoko Ono? I haven’t heard a single thing she’s written. I just know she dated a Beatle. Right? I don’t know. Would I like her stuff? I like Nine Inch Nails, not sissy stuff. LOL. Maybe I’d like it, I don’t know.

I want to read minds too. Though I know it’d probably kill me to know everyone’s most secret thoughts, I’d still want to know.

Patiently awaiting your next masterpiece. -Alycen Chesley

Can I read your new piece?

RYN: =( that’s the biggest stress in my life right now, to tell you the truth. there are so many obstacles for me to overcome to get back in just to finish up the last semester or two for a bachelor’s degree and the deadline is december 1st. i honestly don’t think i can get it all done in time…and i don’t think i can bear another 6 months with no intellectual stimulation

“but therein lies the very nature of life” This is what bugs me most about life. Well I guess second most. Maybe you can guess the first. I just don’t like how we have to go around deceiving everyone and keeping our true selves to our selfs

“t least that’s how it feels when I eat certain things I used to enjoy, like KFC” KFC is the nasty! I’d never eat there. You should switch to LJ. Its soooooooooooo much better….

ants are gross. the other day i went to pour myself water from a water pitcher that was in the fridge. i poured myself some and noticed there were little dead ants in the water. i have idea how they got there..but needless to say..i didn’t drink it…gross~

Ha ha, John Stamos, yeah of course everyone thought he was hot. I thought DJ’s boyfriend Steve was hot too. Man I miss good old fashioned shows like that. Sitcoms now just really suck. “Most of the world sucks, so who wants their approval, really. Minor fame is probably the best sort.” You’re so right about that. You are just always full of such useful wisdom and make me feel good about myself. I

guess you succeed in being a good friend, unlike so many others that I know. You are altruistic and kind and don’t expect anything in return in order to maintain the friendship. … Thats precisely why I hate Christmas, because it starts 2 months before and all of these corporate giants manipulate us into buying their shit. The whole thing is just annoying if you ask me

hey merry christmas/happy new year to you too! even though the holidays are a lot of over-hyped, corporate seductions. =) you really think that about nano-bots?

I havn’t been on in a while and you had me leaning forward in my seat.

Why haven’t you written lately?

Its me Alison. I got a new diary!

Look at you, Mr. Popularity. All these notes! How’s it going? I hope all is well. I miss your notes… they always seemed so real… not written just to be written. I also miss your writing.

OMGZ!! I loved your notes! I smiled while reading each of them and it was great to hear from you again. I look like your sister eh? Can you send me a pic? (And one of you too LOL!)

unfortunately, i am being forced to delete my diary. my boyfriend is uncomfortable with anyone knowing my personal thoughts, so I am notifying my frequent readers before I go. it makes me very sad, but love makes you do crazy things. you are one of my favorites, i’ll miss you

i wish one day someone will write something 1/2 as beautiful as this.

you’re welcomed..

thanks for your notes you left a while ago. howz it?

re-read this poem…soo amazing

I wrote a poem and I need your honest opinion of it. Be brutally brutally honest ok?

Hi! This is Diane (jazzmaniac, videlicet). I wanted you to know that I don’t write here on OD anymore but i do have a tumblr and you can visit it if you’d like http://woeandwonder.tumblr.com/ -with love