staying the inevitable doubt

I see light yonder in your eyes
aglow like all desire and wonder
if it reflects straight from a fire
deep within your heart
or from the glow of my own,
begging questions to be asked of you,
but I answer in your place
and as I tend this task alone
I brace against my doubt, so it is stayed.

Is your heart a hearth for me?
I ask, pondering if a chance exists
that such a fantasy consists
of any plausible reality,
checking if the signs suggest
a burning fire that is desire
exists in you and plainly seems
to burn for me, and my doubt
rejects that possibility, but is stayed.

What caused this flame in you to be?
I ask, knowing all that burns
is kindled first by sparks spurred
from flint or mingled elements,
or any fire that burned prior,
but knowing not to what degree
your warming had been caused by me
instead of the defense we all seek
against the cold, and my doubt
denies responsibility, but is stayed.

Does your fire warm you amply?
I ask, hoping that its heat will reach
all the way down to your feet
from the pleats within your hair,
and that no other source you’ll need
to keep your skin always content
in the air that hangs around you
even on a freezing day, and my doubt
tells me you’re cold, but is stayed.

Will your heart burn eternally?
I ask, having kept my own fire stoked
for only you and for so long,
wishing yours is just as strong
so winter will not douse its flame
and not until we too are ash
will time ever let it wane,
lest I ever wake to see
it has simply ceased to be, and my doubt
says I will love and lose, but is stayed.

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Owi
7 days ago

I love the symbolism. I still wonder how you maintain your romanticism.

5 days ago

@owi If you knew my life, you would see quite easily how I maintain it, haha. In general though, I am an idealist, and I suppose (thankfully I guess) life hasn’t taken that from me yet…

Owi
7 days ago

ps, how do you get the right date on your diary? mine still says 2013

5 days ago

@owi Hmm, I’m not sure… where are you seeing that? The front page of the diary (which sucks now compared to the original OD front page) shows the last entry at the top, which was a 2013 entry until your latest one… are you still seeing it now?

Owi
5 days ago

That’s interesting. You’re am idealist. I’m a realist. But two good friends we remain. Can you share my donation link anywhere? I’m on a mission

Including the venhmo !

5 days ago

@owi Sure, I’ll post it on my facebook! Oh, and who’s to say idealism and realism can’t intersect? Idealists are often looking to make ideals reality, after all… I would say I’m a pragmatic idealist. First you need to prove to yourself that your ideals are worthy, then the next step is to live by them (to prove they’re achievable) and if you’re ambitious and truly believe they have value, ultimately propagate them (either small scale by lone example, or large scale by transmission en masse).