Brain unload

I don’t deal well with death or people nearing death anymore. It is like my brain just shuts off so I don’t have to absorb it or process it.

Both of my grandmas are doing pretty poorly.

I don’t need to go into details, but I just can’t handle this properly.

After I got the text that one of them had fallen and went to the ER, I basically just smoked so my brain could turn off completely.

That’s all. I can’t even say anything else and I don’t even want to say anything more about it.

Sigh.