I’m Gonna Be A Mom!
Yesterday I received the best news on the planet—I’m gonna be a MOM! I emailed this guy I knew & asked him if he would be my donor, & he agreed. I was so ecstatic to hear back from him & I’ve been on “cloud 9” ever since. He’s a real estate agent from Knoxville & is very supportive of my decision to have children. I just can’t believe that I’m going to be pregnant by the end of this year…hopefully. I can’t even begin how to express how happy I am right now. The smile has yet to leave my face. 
I don’t know how I’m gonna tell TB, but she’s gonna find out eventually, especially when my water breaks. Lol. She knows I’m not seeing anyone & she’s definitely gonna ask a cazillion questions. But she’ll have to shut her mouth & just accept it if she wants permission to be around my baby & her grandbaby. Of course, I don’t intend of letting her near it much anyway. The last thing I need is for her to fuck it up like she did me. Since she’s talking of moving to Alabama, hopefully she’ll be gone before the baby arrives.
I’ve remade a new list of possible names. (Unfortunately most of my friends have already given their kids the same names.) Some of them I’ve liked since I was in grammar school, while others are new favorites. I do have more boy names picked out, & I’m having difficulty narrowing it down to just one out of a dozen. However, I have a short list of girl names & just can’t find hardly any that seems right to me, except for maybe 4. Oh well, it’ll be a few months before I get pregnant, & then 4 or 5 months after that before I can find out the gender. Besides, I’m gonna wait until I give birth & spend a few hrs afterwards before finalizing a name for the little one.
Luckily I already have a few baby things—clothes hangers, some clothes, alotta toys, blankets, bottles, books, a diaper bag, etc. The only thing that really concerns me is the dogs. I wonder how they’ll respond to a lil human in the house…in their house. Lol. They’re definitely not gonna like the baby getting more attention than they do, & their barking is gonna wake up the baby constantly. Even if I put the dogs outside, they still bark so damn loud the whole holler can hear them. Plus they’ll steal all of the baby’s toys & food. I mostly just worry about them being too rough b/c they love to bite, scratch, & jump on ppl.
Another great thing about all of this is that he agreed to have additional children with me if I want them, which of course, I do. J So at least I’ll be able to recycle all the baby items for when I have another one. Ideally I want a boy and a girl, but I’d like 3-4 kids minimum. But with my genetics, it’s likely I’m gonna have mostly boys since males outnumber females in my family. Then again my grandparents had 3 of each, though they did have 2 girls before having a boy. I’ll just have to wait & see. Overall, I’ll just be thrilled to finally have a child; and so long as it’s healthy I won’t care about pink or blue.
I just can’t believe that by this time next year I may be a mother. That thought is both terrifying and exhilarating. But it’s a thought I’m relishing. Did I already mention how happy I am? 