Judgement

I know what she thinks of me.  She thinks I don’t even have the capability to do to clean a damn house.  So many people have thought I won’t ever amount to anything.  She thinks I’m stupid, when I am clearly way smarter than her.  I can sense so much judgement about all the things I have done in the past.  She thinks I’m a loser with no sense of responsibility.  The thing is, I was living away from her for 7 years.  She made some comment like, “But you were drinking for 7 years…” No, bitch.  I was only drinking the last year and a half because I was being emotionally abused at work and at home.  So fuck you.  You have so much judgement when it comes to addiction, and you can’t even see you’re addicted to pain pills.  I only did the things I did because I wanted to feel something.  I knew something was wrong, that I shouldn’t feel the way I was feeling, and I was trying to make myself feel decent for at least 2 seconds.  So, fuck you.