I Need to Get Out!

And so he snores…

I get home from work a lil after 17:00 and he is still working, in our study, so I decide to start supper… He has been home all day….you’d think the sink would be clean… Maybe he woud have found time to fold the dry clothing off the washing line… 

Supper is pretty much cooked…just need to finish of the chicken kebabs in the oven…figured perfect time for me to take a shower…

I get back into our bedroom and find him nicely tucked in bed snoring…and it is only 19:03

 or just something…

This is so not the life that I survived a car accident for… I mean I let go of my high school dream of my future years ago…and I held onto a new dream…but every day that dream is becoming harder and harder to reach…in fact so hard I don’t even think I want it anymore….since it means I would be living it with my husband.

Oh G-d please bless me this week so I can get out and create a better future for myself.

I just want to curl up and cry in a corner…but I have worked so hard to be strong and not feel down.

 I can’t tick every statement but I so feel a lot of those lines apply to me and how my life is and how I feel.