Sunday

I’ve been in a odd mood today. Well, the usual mood today. I can’t stop thinking. Stupid stuff. Things I can’t even do anything about, just ponder. The day is mine. I have nothing to do and can’t if I wanted to.

I miss the boys, but they are all busy. So short of that, I have nothing to do. Nothing. But I just can’t clear my head to even nap.

The apartment is just cold enough that wrapping up in the covers and napping would be awesome, but I just can’t stop thinking.

I feel like there’s something I’m missing. Something I’m not doing, something I should do. Work stuff that I can’t do anything about until tomorrow or later in the week. I am stressed about the possibility of the weather changing this week. Not having enough time or too much time.

Not sure if my meds used to help all this, because I have feelings like this for years since my divorce..I guess I miss the distraction my family gave me.