The day after

I don’t feel right. It’s nothing to do with Patty either. I just do not feel right.

I’ve always felt like I don’t fit in, I have since childhood. I’m never comfortable in situations. Not at home, at work, or out in the public. My body doesn’t work as it should and I honestly check the box on everything a man dreads. I’m bald, fat, and out of shape. I am below average in areas and things don’t work anymore. It’s heart-wrenching as a man to find out the “pills” and supplements do not help whatsoever. It didn’t help that I was experiencing all this when she left me and how it went down.

What little energy and determination I had all went away with the nervous breakdown I went through in the 1st year of the separation/divorce. The loss of support has all but killed it.

I have made great strides with things, the reason I am still on this side of the ground, but at my core, I am less than a man.