The other shoe drops

Things have been pretty well lately.  In the past, I would have been afraid – afraid it was all gonna go to shit.  I have resisted that fear and hoped that phase was over; the one where things go bad after a run of good.

That other shoe is this:  I need my van to get to work, to drive the school bus.  If I need to, I can use the boss’s stepvan for the papers.  (and I’m quitting that at the end of the month) The past few days, the van’s transmission has been making end of it’s life noises and shifts.  I don’t think it will be very long before I’m shit out of luck at the side of the road somewhere… which means I will lose my schoolbus driving job since I won’t be able to get there.  A taxi one way is $12 or $13.  The local transit buses don’t run early enough to get me there.  And, on the way home, they only run by the bus barn once an hour.

Things are going to shit – I may end up keeping the paper job and losing the bus job, which will suck big time.

The rent is due and must be paid and I won’t have enough left for a transmission.  The rent is set by Housing at 30% of gross, and they think I’m making big bucks now, so the rent will increase in January.  Meaning, that when I get my monthly bus pay, that most of it is gone for rent, meaning, no transmission.

I’m feeling….

 words fail.  Hopeless?  Yeah, maybe.  Disappointed?  Fer sure- try to make something better of myself and what do I get?

I think it’s time for a nap, before I try to get back to the bus barn.  At least the tranny on my bus works.

^,,^