throwback

So, as you may or may not know, I work as a night shift peds nurse.  That being said I often have to sleep during the day, which means I often have to take things to help me fall asleep during the daytime given that it’s slightly more difficult to do so while the sun is shining than it is when it’s dark outside.  So yesterday morning I got home from work and, since I had to work that upcoming night as well, I took some Melatonin and Benadryl in order to help me fall asleep.  However, my dreams yesterday were weird, much moreso than when I usually take meds.  Like imagine dreaming about Pete for the first time in what seems like forever…like, what is that???  I honestly have no idea why my brain decided to conjure him up again, or that it would involve such an elaborate plot, or that I would remember it so vividly upon waking.  But I did, and it sat with me all the rest of the day today and just made me feel…weird.  DUDE, it’s been like 15 years since I even last saw him.  Get it together.

In any case, I feel weird tonight, and I remember thinking that me seeing him again in the dream and suddenly being part of my life had some huge significance, just like I did when I actually saw him last in real life.  That’s why I felt so strange when I woke up…because all those circumstances had actually happened before.  Not that the outcome of this dream was any different than what happened last time; the outcome was still the same (as far as I can remember anyway).  Hrmph.

Anyway, I just wanted to get that down lest I forget about it soon, because for certain I can already feel the details slipping away from me, just as all dreams do eventually.  Oh well…

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