Well Hello

I’m a bad noter and an even worse writer, but I’m still around reading an enjoying everyday. How selfish of me. P knows about this place and whenever he sees me reading diaries he asks me if I’ve written yet and when I say no he scolds me and tells me I’m going to get kicked off and be sad. I’ve told him how it’s necessary to write every so often in order for someone to keep you on their favorites list. So please, no one kick me off! I guess I just trust P not to read mine. He knows that would be a massive invasion of my privacy, so I don’t think he would. It just got hard keeping this place a total secret from him when I was always reading diaries in front of him. I’d like to write more, but we’ll see.

Everything with P and me is going great. Our relationship has definitely strengthened and deepened and I’m really happy. I’m excited to get home to him every night and just really love and enjoy him. I feel very fortunate to have him. We’ve certainly had some fights, but I think we’re getting better and better at navigating through them and resolving things quickly and fairly. We have this big trip to Italy in October for my 30th birthday and for some time now I’ve thought that then might be when he proposes but it may actually be sooner. He’s been asking a lot of questions about rings and my preferences lately, so the proposal may even be coming sooner than I thought. I will delightfully accept. He will be a wonderful husband and father.

The biggest changes since I last wrote have been with work. I’ve joined the new group full time and the move has been both positive and negative. I’m working longer hours and with a group of almost entirely ego-driven men. People do not play nice is this group. There are constantly comments being made behinds others’ backs and even rude or disparaging things said in person. The environment just sucks- tons of swearing, yelling, and just negativity. I hear so often women say that they would much rather work with men because they’re all business and women can be so catty, but I couldn’t agree less. Throughout the course of my career I have had much more positive experiences working with woman than men.

There have been so many great things with this new position as well. I’m working on much bigger and cooler stuff. The nature of my work has always included publishing a brief piece of commentary on the analysis I’ve done but I’m writing much bigger and well read stuff now, more how-to pieces. The stuff that has been added to my resume over the last year beats anything I’d done in the four years prior. The stuff that results from a google search of my name has been greatly enhanced which is fulfilling both personally and professionally.

 With work and P I struggle to make time for friends and much else. I’m definitely trying to make an effort to reach out to friends to catch-up when it’s been a while though and don’t ever miss important stuff in their lives. I feel guilty pretty frequently that my family seems to get short changed a lot with me and I really need to work on calling them more.

I’ve really never had a problem maintaining a desirable weight but starting at about about 27 the amount of cellulite on my legs seemed to start multiplying. It’s gotten so bad that I’m not even comfortable wearing shorts or short dresses and skirts. I really feel like I’ve tried everything in terms of exercise and it just doesn’t seem to go away. At this point I’m becoming obsessive about finding a solution and don’t want to just accept it. I’ve recently done a massive overhaul of my diet and I’m hoping that helps. I’m hoping I can stick with it because they’re the kinds of changes I should be making permanently anyway- stuff like just eating much cleaner and organically and an almost complete elimination of processed and refined foods. I’m trying to stay away from white sugar and flour, pork products, fried foods and fatty foods entirely. It’s just hard because I love love love food.

Alright so this has been a decent update (albeit a bit boring) and hopefully I’ll be back soon. I’ll leave you with pictures from some of the highlights over the last six months. Unfortunately, we haven’t taken many pictures 🙁

Me with my godson (Anna’s baby) Cooper the day after he was born.

My boys sleeping. Does it get any cuter?

Me and my sweet cuddly fluffy pup

Me and P at Emily’s wedding in June.

Look how long my hair is!