My feelings for N, are they love or an obsession? During my first divorce, I hated her and no matter what, that hatred stayed there for years. Yet with N it’s completely different. After all the horrible things she’s said or done, I still love her very much, forgive her, think about her and pray for her. I worked some more on the sign tonight. I painted in her name in silver. Tomorrow I’ll be painting the turtle. Then another day for that to dry and then the protective coat. I hope to have it hanging up on the outside of my house in a couple of days.
No, I don’t think it’s an obsession. If it was, I wouldn’t be able to do anything but think about her. I’d be paralyzed. I might be stalking her or worse. But I’m not. I love her and I want the best for her. Right now, she isn’t being herself. She’s easily influenced and I can tell has been in this case. No matter what, I’ll still love her. If she ever comes back, I’ll welcome her with open arms and a loving heart. True love never stops. IT never gives up. It’s not just a feeling, but also a choice. I feel love for her, but more important, I choose to do so.
Love you, N.