I am depressed

I have been suffering from depression for the last 15 years. I am 30 now. The only thing that seems to help is sleeping and watching YouTube videos.  I don’t understand why I can’t be happy. I am on Prozac for my depression but I still have more bad days then good. I used to self harm but I quit 2 years ago.


In 2015 I attempted suicide. I’m really lucky to be alive. University of Michigan hospital saved my life. Yes I live in Michigan. I was in the ICU and on life support at the first hospital I went to. I promise my parents that I wouldn’t never attempted suicide again.

My dad has stage 4 prostate cancer. At first he didn’t want to tell me but I made him. I was really depressed because of that. My grandpa died on April 9th. I miss him terrible. He was such a great guy. I have so many good memories of my grandpa.

Rip I’ll see you in the next life.

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July 6, 2019

Depression is hard. I too suffer from it. Have they considered switching your meds at all? People who have never suffered from depression don’t get it. Hang in there.

July 6, 2019

@thespiritwithinme they didn’t switch but they increased my latuda. I’m affraid if they switch meds. I’ll get suicidal again. W

July 6, 2019

@pandmandi you sound like me a few years ago. I can’t take antidepressants. I have to take antipsychotics. I was so afraid for them to ever switch my meds. It would make me paranoid and suicidal. I am on some now that I’ve gained weight on, but I am afraid to switch cause I can’t go through that again.

July 6, 2019

@thespiritwithinme yea and my psych doctor don’t really listen to me

July 6, 2019

I also suffer from depression and have for most of my life. It is incredibly hard. I’m 34, and I’m still struggling to be happy. My point is that I understand your struggles. Even the stuff with your dad, kind of. I was doing much better in life, then my dad got stage 3c colon cancer and it hit me hard. Just keep hanging in there, stay strong. You’ll find support here

November 19, 2019

I constantly try to keep my mind busy too. I’m either watching movies/videos or reading. If I don’t constantly keep my mind busy nothing but negative thoughts flood in. I know exactly how you feel, having more bad days than good.

Sorry for your lost. ❤ Losing a loved one is never easy. You’re in my prayers.