I am depressed

I have been suffering from depression for the last 15 years. I am 30 now. The only thing that seems to help is sleeping and watching YouTube videos.  I don’t understand why I can’t be happy. I am on Prozac for my depression but I still have more bad days then good. I used to self harm but I quit 2 years ago.

 

In 2015 I attempted suicide. I’m really lucky to be alive. University of Michigan hospital saved my life. Yes I live in Michigan. I was in the ICU and on life support at the first hospital I went to. I promise my parents that I wouldn’t never attempted suicide again.

My dad has stage 4 prostate cancer. At first he didn’t want to tell me but I made him. I was really depressed because of that. My grandpa died on April 9th. I miss him terrible. He was such a great guy. I have so many good memories of my grandpa.

Rip I’ll see you in the next life.

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July 6, 2019

Depression is hard. I too suffer from it. Have they considered switching your meds at all? People who have never suffered from depression don’t get it. Hang in there.

July 6, 2019

@thespiritwithinme they didn’t switch but they increased my latuda. I’m affraid if they switch meds. I’ll get suicidal again. W

July 6, 2019

@pandmandi you sound like me a few years ago. I can’t take antidepressants. I have to take antipsychotics. I was so afraid for them to ever switch my meds. It would make me paranoid and suicidal. I am on some now that I’ve gained weight on, but I am afraid to switch cause I can’t go through that again.

July 6, 2019

@thespiritwithinme yea and my psych doctor don’t really listen to me

July 6, 2019

I also suffer from depression and have for most of my life. It is incredibly hard. I’m 34, and I’m still struggling to be happy. My point is that I understand your struggles. Even the stuff with your dad, kind of. I was doing much better in life, then my dad got stage 3c colon cancer and it hit me hard. Just keep hanging in there, stay strong. You’ll find support here