2/6/05

I wrote Krystal an email, simple, but effective.  “I’m thinking of you.”  That is what it was.  But I know she will see it as more which it was.  I wished she was with me tonight.  When I go out, I think of her, and I want her to be there.  I want her to feel what I feel, I want her to see what I see. :s  So it hurts when she isn’t around me.  I try to feel others… but as of now, nothing has compared.  They just haven’t been the same.

I read a post tonight, about how Aussie’s love breakbeats, I am curious, there is one aussie that I know and  I know I would click with.  But is she into breakbeats? She is in to her studies, and I am proud of that, but I find electronic isn’t open to mainstream.  Anyway, not like I will ever meet this girl.

btw, I had a fucked dream last night.  Soldiers were chasing after me, and I was in a room with few of my soccer teammates, my sister (P) Krystal, and Natasha T.  We were hiding in the closet with the curtains closed.  Enique went down the hall to lookfor a way out and I heard him get gunned down.  A few decieded to stay put, but Krystal, Pauline and I decided to make a run for it out back.  When all of a suddened a ship outside started unloading rounds at us.  Pauline and Natahsa got rocked by these aliens and K and I ran, we jumped out the back window. I was so upset, I couldn’t just leave Pauline, but Krystal insited we move.  We ran from Pauline’s room to the back yard, and were trapped on the back fence.  We were sweating it looked like the end.  We felt like we were the end of the world.  It was just her and I left. We looked at each other, she smiled and said in a non-spoken word “don’t worry, you and I will be togeather forever…. we will live on.”  and then as we sat there in embrace, she gave me a passionate kiss.  A  ship came out of ther purple sky and shot K with some sort of laser cannons…. I was screaming… I couldn’t take it.  At that moment I woke up, in a cold sweat.  It was 2:30pm….

What the hell was that?

Music of the Moment: Crytal Method – Legion of Boom (Track 5)
Today I Feel: there, but not really there