Silence Is Best

BOB
You’re chasing Amy.

HOLDEN
What..what did you say?

BOB
You’re chasing Amy.

JAY
What do you look so shocked for? He does this all the time. Fat bastard thinks just because he never says anything, that it’ll have some huge impact when he does open his fucking mouth.

BOB
Why don’t you shut up? Jesus! Always yap, yap, yapping all the time. Give me a fucking headache.I went through something like what you’re going through. Years ago.Same kind of thing with a girl named Amy.

JAY
When?

BOB
A couple of years ago.

JAY
What’d she ‘Live in Canada’ orsomething? Why don’t I remember this?

BOB
What you don’t know about me I can just about squeeze into the Grand fucking Canyon. Did you know I always wanted to be a dancer in Vegas?Hunhh? Bet you didn’t know that?

JAY
Just cell your fucking story so we can get out of here and smoke this.

BOB
So there’s me an Amy, and we’re all inseparable, right? Just big time in love. And then about four months in,I ask about the ex-boyfriend. Dumb move, I know, but you know how it is you don’t really want to know, but you just have to… stupid guy bullshit. Anyway she starts telling me all about him – how they dated for years, lived together, her mother likes me better,blah, blah, blah – and I’m okay. But then she tells me that a couple times,he brought other people to bed with them – menage a tois, I believe it’s called. Now this just blows my mind.I mean, I’m not used to that sort of thing, right? I was raised Catholic.

JAY
Saint Shithead.

BOB
Do something.So I get weirded out, and just start blasting her, right? This is the only way I can deal with it – by calling her a slut, and telling her that she was used – I mean, I’m out for blood I want to hurt her – because I don’t know how to deal with what I’m feeling. And I’m like “What the fuck is wrong with you?” and she’s telling me that it was that time, in that place, and she didn’t do anything wrong, so she’s not gonna apologize.So I tell her it’s over, and I walk.

JAY
Fucking a.

BOB
No, idiot. It was a mistake. I wasn’t disgusted with her, I was afraid. At that moment, I felt small like I’d lacked experience, like I’d never be on her level or never be enough for her or something. And what I didn’t get was that she didn’t care. She wasn’t looking for= that guy anymore. She was looking for me. But by the time I realized this,= it was too late, you know. She’d moved on, and all I had to show for it= was some foolish pride, which then gave way to regret. She was the girl,I know that now. But I pushed her away…So I’ve spent every day since then chasing Amy…So to speak.

This is so deep in so many ways. The reasons why putting up this lie all in a word in a name. I leave you with this name and you to figure it out on your own.

Silent Bob

If you can’t figure it out. Ask me and I’ll explain it maybe someday why this is here. You know my icq number or my aol im screen name if you need to get a hold of me to explain it. And if it bugs you that bad you can always e-mail me because well I check it every single day. Thank you and good day.

~Sonja~