Hello, I just wanted to introduce myself.

As the title says, hi.

I found this site today and was kind of blown away. I’ve searched for a blogging community that allows your own platform and being able to chat with others for a long time. And somehow I finally found it today. I’m very grateful and excited to be here. I’ve read some people’s stuff already and it’s nice to get an intimate view of strangers’ lives. In this day and age, everything seems so skin deep and so it’s wonderful to see actual reflections of people through their writing.

Anyways, I digress.

TW: Suicide/Grief.

I’m here because I need to start journaling, for real this time. I lost my dad to suicide 2.5 weeks ago. I’m extremely lost. I’ve received a lot of love and support from friends and family and that has been really nice. But I haven’t really looked inside myself because everything hurts so much. I’ve resorted to drinking too much almost every night – which is an old pattern I had in my younger days that I had to work hard to get out of. I know there are more ways to heal than isolation and booze. So here I am. I just need to get out of my head.

I’m hoping I’ll post here at least once a week. Writing used to be my absolute escape growing up. I was honored to usually be the best writer in my class from kindergarten all the way through high school. I love to write personal things; I’ll share gratitude, sorrow, concern, hope. I also looooveee creative writing and I hope to pop in a few epic stories here and there. I love astrology and I’ve recently started dabbling in tarot cards so I may share some of the readings I do for others (anonymously named of course) and of my own.

So yeah that’s me. I look forward to getting to know this community and maybe making a few virtual friends as well.

Have a nice day, everyone.

 

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September 13, 2021

Welcome! This is a great place to process and get a sense of community. I’ve written here since 2000 (minus the few years the site was on hiatus) and couldn’t imagine surviving half the crap I have without this place.

The words “I’m sorry” are cruelly inadequate regarding the loss of suck an important figure in your life–but,  I’m sorry.

 

September 13, 2021

@thecriticsdarling Wow I wish I would have known about this place since 2000! It looks absolutely wonderful. I look forward to reading your writing.

Just the act of saying sorry is very kind and I very much appreciate it.

Thank you for the warm welcome. Truly.

September 13, 2021

Welcome to OD. I am sorry for your loss. You should be happy with yourself for being proactive by joining this site. The people here are pretty great and supportive. I hope that writing here helps you to heal.

September 13, 2021

@heffay Thank you so much and thank you for your kind welcome and support. I am very happy to be here.

kat
September 13, 2021

welcome this is a great place!

 

September 14, 2021

@kaliko thank you so much! I’m very excited to be here

September 14, 2021

Welcome and I’m sorry for your loss.

September 14, 2021

@sweetie04 thank you much for your welcome and kind regards. 🙂

September 14, 2021

I am just starting out too, so perhaps us “newbies” can stick together. I am really saddened that you’ve lost someone that close to you, and I think you are very brave to put that out in the open with your first entry.
I’m not really sure why I am here (lol). I am a writer too, so that’s one aspect of my decision. I have been in a perpetual drought for months and months. Just dry. I am trying now to get on a new path. I don’t really care if I get published or not. I just really miss creating and feeling good about said creations.
I wish you luck in your beginning endeavors :). I haven’t quite finished my intro entry yet, but I’m working on it. This seems like an awesome community to be a part of.

September 14, 2021

@bohemiandoll180 Welcome here! How cool is it that this place exists? I wish I found it a long time ago.

Thank you for saying I’m brave. Sometimes I feel selfish talking about it, but its something that lives in my head and the thoughts are so loud I have to express it and be open. I do so on my personal social media a little bit too – in turn I’ve had people come to me with their own experiences of losing people in a similar fashion. So many people are out here hurting.

Good on you for getting back into writing! Its hard to have writer’s block. I feel it. I can’t wait to see what you share with us!

September 14, 2021

Welcome to the Family! 💗

I am sorry about your loss. I sincerely wish you a ‘long life’ .

I agree with you @TheCriticsDarling. This community is a great place to let it all out and get support.

 

September 14, 2021

@ncumisa Thank you so very much for such a warm welcome. I’m happy to be able to be somewhere where I can scream into the void via writing. I appreciate it. Thank you for your friend request! I look forward to getting to know you 🙂

September 14, 2021

@queengloom pleasure. And I too look forward to getting to know you.

September 14, 2021

Welcome aboard!  I think you’ll find a good few people here who will support, honor and cherish you in anything and everything you decide to share here.  It’s an outlet to be sure.

I am so, so, so, so sorry about your dad.  As Critic said…that’s inadequate.

And, just to give a bit of an 😏 while hopefully trying to not make it weird…with the Spirit leanings you have going on there, you already seem to be one of the special ones.  No, not short bus special.  😁

Welcome aboard!

September 14, 2021

@tigerhawk Thats so incredibly kind of you! While I’ve been sleuthing around on here and reading others’ blogs you are very uplifting and detailed with your replies. That too is special. Thank you for the welcome and the kind words.

September 14, 2021

@queengloom – Well then, double welcome aboard…Your Sleuthiness!  😁

September 16, 2021

You’d left a note on my diary, but I inadvertently deleted it. I was trying to get rid of a spam comment (yes, they exist).

I’m sorry about your dad’s death. Yes, drinking is a very convenient and expedient way to mask the pain, at least temporarily. Been there, done that, albeit for much different reasons.

Welcome to OD. The addition of anyone who can offer raw, unfiltered commentary in this community is a good thing. Let’s write and party like it’s 2001.

September 16, 2021

@kingofi Funny you should mention the spam comments! I got one today – so bizarre. No worries on deleting mine 🙂

Thank you for your regards and also transparency. I’ve also had struggles with alcohol. Ups and downs. Eventually, I’d like to kick the stuff altogether – for now, it’s not interfering with my life as it used to but I know its a slippery slope.

Party like 2001 we shall. I’m so happy to be here.

September 16, 2021

Welcome to Open Diary.  Your profile looks like you have come to the right place.  The loss of your father particularly in the manner he died has to be the worst thing you have ever had happen.  Writing is a refuge.  We’ll be here.  😎