On Saturdays, take a moment to reflect on and sum up in a few words how your week went…..
So the firewall is fixed at school and I can no longer get on here yet again while at work. But this is what I was writing this week to post in here when I got time; which did not happen until today.
I just cant fucking do this anymore. I am tired and worn out. Every morning this week I have woke up and started crying because consciousness hurts; waking up physically hurts. I curl up with my dog and he cuddles up and wont let me get up.
I dont like waking up to pain and scaring my dog.
I cant be everything to everyone. But I am expected to be.
I cant do everything that is asked of me without help. I ask for help and get blown off.
I am not responsible for the fuck up of others. But I have to fix their mistakes anyways while I get screamed at.
I am only one human being. There is only so much time in a day. There is a limit to how much I can do.
I cant fix everything.
I dont have all the answers.
I cant magically make shit happen.
I cant do this by my self.
I want this to stop.
I need it to stop.
– Before I make it stop.
I am exhausted and unable to really think or speak clearly.
I want to just give up.
Yeah, that is how my week went. I am physically, mentally, and emotionally done. I cannot do this anymore, and I cannot live like this.