practice what i preach

currently:

reading: discord
listening: fragi’s weeb music on his stream
watching: fragi’s livestream (the 5th hour???)
obsession: the discord where lindsey and i send each other bad jokes and cat pictures


we’re getting out of this ashtray apartment in a month. finally. hopefully i won’t have to toss all our linens and textiles due to lingering smells. anyway.

we’re going to la to see the fusion boys play in like, two weeks. it’s going to be a jam. i’m finally going to meet michelleeeeen dot tumblr dot com, which. it’s been like 6 years since we became friends? so i’m STOKED about it. between staying with her and the impossibly cheap air b&b i snagged us in burbank, and the airline miles we racked up from the trip to france in october, we’re taking a california vacation for like, no money. i cannot wait to go back to CA. i’ve missed it a lot.

SOMEHOW i joined the fusion discord (after a long bout of soul searching, in which i realized that i’m completely ridiculous and i might as well embrace it) and like, the next day accidentally fell into conversation with a girl who lives in dc and likes my & andrew’s go-to pho shop. at some point this summer we’re going to get bruch i think? is this how adults make friends?

the new guy (scott) started at work this week and he has the flattest disposition of any person i have known since high school. i think i get him though, and he seems intelligent enough. i think this week erika’s going to start him on purchase orders, which means my days of being inundated with orders are coming to an end. i’m SO thankful. i keep getting ~distracted~ but if i manage to keep my head down and actually force work at work then i’m like 3 days from being on top of my shit again. if i work hard enough at it then i might be on top of my orders again by tuesday, which means i can tackle my god forsaken inbox. people keep looking at me being like “i saw she has 300 unread emails, can you IMAGINE??” and i’m like NO!! how AWFUL!! like i’m not sitting on 1,800 unread emails. some of them are from last november. i’m actually not even sorry about it.

anna actually spoke to me on friday, which was interesting. i wonder if she knows that i know that she unfollowed me on tumblr. i wonder if she knows that i know that she’s dating bronwen. i wonder if she knows that i know that she’s put up the barriers to keep our friendship a superficial one now. i wonder if she knows that andrew and i are actively making moves to getting married. i won’t say i wonder if she cares, because she’ll ~always care~ or somesuch rot, but also she introduced us. at some point i need to put up a master timeline of the Anna and Bronwen Cycle, in which i gain a friend, they gain friends, i gain a boyfriend, i move in, anna and i fight, bronwen takes anna’s side, bronwen doesn’t so much as burn the bridge of our friendship so much as remove the loadstones and then blame me for the collapse, anna takes her side, anna moves out, they start dating, and i lose 2 friends. the slow crumble of friendships is a painful and confusing process. the resulting poetry is even worse.

next weekend (i think?) andrew and i are going down to nc to meet with a photographer and tour some venues for our prospective wedding in september 2019. it’s going to be a jam dot com trying tour venues with no rock on my finger because The SouthTM, but maybe we’ll take one of nana’s and use it as an interim ring. i dunno. it’s a bit surreal. we’re going to get married. but i’m ready for that, i think. i love that boy.

..i just realized where i may have stashed a few Important Documents and if they are where i think they are i am going to be quite Put Out with myself. honestly.

quite a busy few upcoming weeks. wish me luck on them, cause i’ll need it.

ra ta ta ta, putain de merde, humble beard bread man<3

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