rip pigley`s sanity

I figured you needed some updating before I posted about current life, so sorry for posting so much this evening <3
I plan to post once a day, in the evening! This post is about my anxiety…
We assume it was brought on by the fact my dog has nearly died quite a few times these last few years, and I was bullied a lot in school. I am always fidgeting, I get irritated easily, stuff like that but it gets more complicated.
Sometimes I am just relaxing at home and I get this sudden gut wrenching feeling that someone awful is in my house, someone just waiting to kill me, I am not sure if I can explain it better than my brain goes- shit. shit. shit. fight or flight fight or flight!
Its not fun… I also get nightmares quite a lot about getting chased, kidnapped, killed and sometimes just ones where something really bad is happening but no one can hear me. These dreams haunt me and keep me on edge for days afterwards. Sometimes I can`t open a curtain or door because my brain is like- someone is gonna be standing there, back away back away!
Can anyone relate to this, or am I super weird? haha

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November 30, 2020

Do you watch a lot of those horror movies like with Freddy Kruger or Chucky?  Those are oldies.  I’ve had the being chased dream.  I am out of breath when I wake up.  🙂

November 30, 2020

@tracker2020 nope I have watched a few thrillers, nothing super scary, more about action / zombie apocalypse movies nowadays haha

December 1, 2020

I get those feelings from time to time. I guess I’ve learned to tune them out to a point or to avoid certain situations. The point is that you aren’t alone and there’s a lot of us weirdos out there.

December 1, 2020

@dragontears Thankyouu 😀

December 9, 2020

My daughter suffers from Night Terrors. I know sometimes it can be a side effect of medication. She can be awake and have something scare her to death. She’s 14 btw. I know what causes her issues. It’s from the trauma she was exposed to a few years back. The fear it caused her just never left her. It comes out mostly at night but has happened in the day. The feeling of you getting scared. Sounds like anxiety. I’m no doctor. But I too suffer from axiety.

December 9, 2020

@pennocking eah it`s anxiety, I wrote a previous post about it : ) that’s horrible : ( tell your daughter pigley says hi x I am around her age

December 12, 2020

me thats exactly the way i am as well

December 12, 2020

@shooter really! awesome, like bad but awesome XD

January 2, 2021

Anxiety and I are old frenemies. I tried fight-or-flight but I usually freeze, which means the monsters are able to just come along and kill me without me running away or trying to put up a fight or anything. You should look into grounding techniques… the 5-4-3-2-1 technique is helpful to me when I can remember to use it.

January 14, 2021

@foxitten hey i love ur name, and thanks for leaving a note <3