What do you do when you want to give up? Not just on life but on just everything going on in your life. My son is being so disrespectful and just hurtful. He’s 15 years old and I know he’s going through the hormones or whatever but when you have given up your whole life to be a good mom and to give him everything it’s still very hurtful. I am torn. I know I can call and have him taken out of my home. I know the steps. I feel like I need to do that because we need separation. But I also know that the virus out there will put him at risk if I put him in a foster home right now because he does have a vulnerable immune system. But I can’t, no I won’t, put up with this. I think he actually called me a whore today. I’m almost positive he did. But as soon as I got in his face about it he backed out and just went silent. I have given this boy everything. I think that’s what post me off the most. Like I have literally given him everything. Most single moms struggle, but we never struggled. The best home, the best activities, the best trips. The best education opportunities. I traveled with him and gave him opportunities that I didn’t have. I spent time with him, I supported him, I cheered for him. Like I feel like I did everything. Was I a perfect mom? No. I made my mistakes. And when I made those mistakes I made sure I apologized. We had a great relationship but these last few months have been very hard. I know I am so upset because it’s not just this thing with him. I am also really missing my dad and that has been a pain in my heart and my head every day I wake up, every day that I breathe, It’s not even that I won’t do this anymore….I just can’t. I want to go to my room, close my door and never come out. Ever. My whole life has been spending pleasing other people. Trying to be the best that I can. From 25-40 I have spent that time being a mom. Nothing else mattered. Not building relationships or friendships. Not alone time, not pursuing different things. When I became a mom everything stopped and I cultivated nothing for myself. and now the person that I have given it all up for has decided to kick me in the face. And I have to be the adult so I cant kick back.