Sometimes..okay most times I feel so alone. I don’t connect with anyone unless i put on a fake happy face. i love my family but some things my siblings say just hurt me. As for my friends, I don’t go on my phone much so I don’t talk to anyone. I used to be a crazy, silly friend but then I realized that it was just a cover for who I truly am. A shy, insecure girl. It’s so empty and I fill that void with my hard work in school and sports and my safe place are my books. I can read from 1-4 books a day. Sometimes I feel like what is my purpose in my life and I come up empty. I don’t want to kill myself, but I’m just so lost.