Empty

Sometimes..okay most times I feel so alone. I don’t connect with anyone unless i put on a fake happy face. i love my family but some things my siblings say just hurt me. As for my friends, I don’t go on my phone much so I don’t talk to anyone. I used to be a crazy, silly friend but then I realized that it was just a cover for who I truly am. A shy, insecure girl. It’s so empty and I fill that void with my hard work in school and sports and my safe place are my books. I can read from 1-4 books a day. Sometimes I feel like what is my purpose in my life and I come up empty. I don’t want to kill myself, but I’m just so lost.

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July 15, 2020

Are we folloeed by empty or we are following empty?

 

July 17, 2020

@sexdoll-alisa following empty😔😤

July 16, 2020

Maybe you just have to redirect your attention 😊 It’s nice to have company but sometimes there is something in you which you have not discovered yet and you had no time to explore it because you are busy looking for your happiness on others. You don’t have to put on a fake smile just to be connected to other people. Connect with yourself, study what you want to do, how you want it to be done and just start it with you even if it means you working alone for yourself. I am not saying you won’t be needing them ok. You will still do but for now just pay attention on what you wanted to become and someday it will be automatic for others to see what you have discovered. Everyone is a precious soul and so are you. You just have to consider yourself as a gem before others do😊–random thoughts of my interconnected mouth, brain and fingers

July 17, 2020

@justvisiting Thank you, this is just what I needed to help me!:)

July 17, 2020

I’m here to listen. 🙂

July 17, 2020

@sammybaby thank you!!

July 17, 2020

@sassywolf1027 I’m at your service.

July 18, 2020

@sammybaby 😊💞 ill txt u next time i need advice. Same goes here if you ever need smne to talk to.

July 18, 2020
July 17, 2020

it’s exhausting, isn’t it? putting on a face for everyone? it’s best to just admit what who you feeld you really are, and let people know when they’re hurting you. [those who matter don’t mind, and those who mind don’t matter].

you’ll find your purpose when you find doing something you love – whether that means being a chef, a regular worker bee, or being a mother. but you have to actively search for your passion.

you strike me as a sensitive and empathetic person – this is very rare (but still a very good thing to be)… anyone who doesn’t like you for you, is just going to have to get over it! 🙂

July 18, 2020

@birdofpassage Yes, it is exhausting and you are so right. I am a very sensitive person and smtmes i just have to tell myself it’s not a big deal or they meant it as a joke or else i take it to heart. I rlly appreciate your comment.❤️

August 8, 2020

I am here if you ever need anyone to talk too.

 

August 12, 2020

We sound similar. I used to pretend to be someone else, hiding every fiber of who I was. It got so bad that I don’t even know me any more. I can’t remember what foods I like or what books I want to read because I adapted to those around me. Hopefully, we are both taking the first step to figuring out who we are and what we want.