I know I’ve been posting a lot on here but i don’t really fucking care. I just wanna write down my feelings and I’ve been feeling super depressed even though things have been going great lately. Like i have the most amazing boyfriend. Who’s always there for me when I’m scared and alone. He tells me I don’t need to deal with anything alone and that really helps. He is literally the best in every way. I finally found the perfect man and I’m gonna give him everything he deserves. He is gonna get it all. I know the only reason I’m depressed is because of my mental illness. I just feel so trapped in my own mind. I just don’t want to be in my room because thats the center point for my psychoticneth. I feel like I’m being watched CONSTANTLY. It’s so exausting I just want to die. This is literally a cry for help lmao. I kinda just wanna drink and drown in my own sorrow okok ill quit being stupid but anyways I hope some people are doing better then me and if anyone wants to talk I’m totally open!