There’s a whirl wind of emotions today.
I feel like a yo-yo.
One minute there is a sense of relief, I feel motivated to move forward, my confidence is growing.
The next there is no wind in my sails. I want nothing more than to crawl into bed and hibernate. Bury my head until it’s over.
Questioning every decision you make is exhausting. Somewhere along the way you have to question your own sanity.
Are everything you tried to be?
Are you really the best for her?
Are you too broken to be what she needs?
This morning I felt hopeful.
But as the day wanes forward, so does my hope.