So I am slowly dropping pounds day by day. It’s a long and slow process but so worth it. It takes a lot of self control but now after over a month, I honestly can say I don’t crave food at night like I used to. I just don’t allow myself to eat after 7pm and it’s working so far and my appetite has decreased probably in part due to the meds I am on. These meds actually have an anorexia warning. Not sure why they thought that would be a good med to put me on considering my past history with anorexia but I’m all for it! I even had some friends over today and they told me I lost a lot of weight. Wooohoo that means in that just one month I’ve lost enough for others to notice. I still don’t see it and still have a long way to go but I am getting there. Yay. My weight loss journey is the only way…for now…that I have to cope and scream my pain aloud. Hopefully one day I will be cured from all self destruction. That will take learning to love myself, to accept me for me…..I don’t even I now who I am 🙁 I’ve always hidden behind a mask. Self discovery journey next.