#7 day of no work. I always wake-up early and feel I am late for work. As I write this I feel a little guilty for not being at work. Other people laid off or retired often go back to their place of work. I do not. My logical mind understands it but my emotional mind feels much resentment about it. I understand the company my die in a few months. This is a strange feeling of not having any meaning or use in this world. I have the birds. I will enjoy the time off but must focus on not spending any money. I think of it as having a small amount of air to breathe. Must conserve the air or I will suffocate.
We all want some meaning and to feel useful. Work gives us that.That and helping others. It is not about ourselves. It is about contributing to something greater than our own egos.
I never thought I would retire but my body tells me I will have to do it and live on fixed income. Learn to be frugal. Like NOW. My father learned frugal during the Great Depression. I never had to learn it and live it because I always had a decent income. Not great but ok. Rarely worried about paying the rent. Now I believe if I can make it to October I will be ok. Practice frugality. QUESTION every purchase if it is necessary. Example: Pad for headphones. Better than buying new headphones. ONLY food that will sustain me. Keep me from becoming obese 😉
I will make my own meaning in life now and in the future.