Day 7

#7 day of no work. I always wake-up early and feel I am late for work. As I write this I feel a little guilty for not being at work. Other people laid off or retired often go back to their place of work. I do not. My logical mind understands it but my emotional mind feels much resentment about it. I understand the company my die in a few months. This is a strange feeling of not having any meaning or use in this world. I have the birds. I will enjoy the time off but must focus on not spending any money. I think of it as having a small amount of air to breathe. Must conserve the air or I will suffocate.

We all want some meaning and to feel useful. Work gives us that.That and helping others. It is not about ourselves. It is about contributing to something greater than our own egos. 

I never thought I would retire but my body tells me I will have to do it and live on fixed income. Learn to be frugal. Like NOW. My father learned frugal during the Great Depression. I never had to learn it and live it because I always had a decent income. Not great but ok. Rarely worried about paying the rent. Now I believe if I can make it to October I will be ok. Practice frugality. QUESTION every purchase if it is necessary. Example: Pad for headphones. Better than buying new headphones. ONLY food that will sustain me. Keep me from becoming obese 😉 

I will make my own meaning in life now and in the future. 

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November 24, 2020

You go, Bruno! In my experience I have always spent what I had. Make more, spend more. Make less, spend less. I know the Great Depression had a profound effect on my Dad, who was a little boy then. My mother, on the other hand, lived on a farm with chicken, eggs, cows, milk, pigs, garden and fruit trees. Dad went hungry and he remembers. Mom didn’t and the Depression meant nothing to her. Not sure what that has to do with anything other than you triggered some memories. You will survive and I suspect you will find a small bit of pride in challenging yourself.  At least your sense of humor is going to kick in.

November 24, 2020

@chalandra I will do fine. There is a hormonal spike in it. Serotonin? I guess we are of the same generation. Boomer? I am an atheist BLESSED with good people around me. I will honor them with good and not being a fuck-up like in my past 😉 I lived I learned. Today I got on the treadmill as yet another life-affirmative thing. Life is motion keep in motion. All is constant change and we adapt or fade out. Thanks for your kindness and memories 🙂

November 24, 2020

@skobru Yes, old Boomer and old Hippie with lots of screw-ups in my past. Old enough and well enough to have appreciation for it all — the good, the bad and the ugly.

November 24, 2020

@chalandra I did the drugs but not the sex. Parents tried to kill me after my hair got over 1 inch long 😉 Oh but I could have been cool with the right look!LOL

November 24, 2020

It wasn’t till 13 years ago I have ever herd of “unit pricing” I am still earning but it’s becoming easier each time I go grocery shopping. If you look at the deals you can always save money.

I think you will do really good being frugal, and you still get to enjoy life and food and your birds.

November 24, 2020

@jaythesmartone The things I buy are often not on sale and are particular to me I guess. I have to buy some things off Amazon due to scarcities of some items in the USA. No white stuff like bread or rice etc. As I write this I am cooking about 2 weeks worth of pancakes using a multigrain mix, blueberries, chia seed and quinoa. Cutting back on meat eating things like eggs for additional protein and trying to eat less carbohydrates.

 

November 24, 2020

@skobru

The one thing I learned from weight watchers is that if you eat things like fruit and proteins like yogurt (Greek yogurt) then the cravings for salt and sugar will be deleted….And everything else is in moderation….

November 24, 2020

@jaythesmartone Doing so. Make bread a rarity. Oh pancakes in the morning with high protein in their composition. Good idea about the protein. I hear it is smart to load up on it because it takes a lot of energy to burn.

 

kat
November 24, 2020

I believe you will be called back… think of it as a vacation

November 24, 2020

@kaliko They said there is a full truck full of wood for me to inspect on it’s way. Boss said it would take me 3 weeks but I think less. I could drag ass on it and make it last but that makes time drag too. They CAN take their Christmas party and shove it 😉

kat
November 24, 2020

@skobru smart man

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