What was the name of the last car you owned? I recently wondered and found it hard to remember that.
Took me a while but I remembered.
It was so recent. Like so many things in life: Why do I not remember it or THEM? People. Events. Times in my life.
I ask myself, “does it matter?”
WHAT “matters”? WHAT is worth remembering? Is shit that happened in the 3 years of High School worth bothering with? Yeah it was traumatic – but get over it already.
Why do I not remember so much of what happened at WORK in the past 43 years?
Because it had little importance.The same with those people. So many I worked with. They came and went.WHO had staying power in my memory? So much was years of drudgery. A pay check.
WHY do I not remember much of my childhood and adolescence?I know it was because the events that were the loudest in our emotions had the most staying power.
Why do I not remember where I left that ___ thing in my house? Is it brain damage?
So much I can and cannot remember. For example, tonight I remembered a song from 1969. Ok I did for a while… what was that song I was listening to… 😉
I fear losing my mind. Becoming a thing that eats, shits and talks idiocy and is useless. Ah ok I remember that song name now. I am not doing so bad I guess 😉