I have no income now. Nothing coming in. It is a free falling feeling that almost panics me at times. Last year I could buy anything I wanted or close to it. NOW, I spend a week agonizing over a food list of ONLY food. I do not complain. It is what it now IS. There is a gift in it. I appreciate more what I do have. I appreciate still being able to pay the rent from savings. I DO have an IRA and look at it daily trying to push the numbers up on it.
My whole life is now about thinking about food to live on. How to keep myself healthy and alive on the cheap. No extras no sweets or snack foods no alcohol or drugs. NO WASTE. What can eating THIS do to keep me alive? When I drive I drive as conservatively as I can to make the fuel last. So much is now about all I have and do being focused on being frugal and making what I have last as long as I can. It gives me great regrets of my past but regrets don’t keep you alive except for lessons learned. Hoping I can keep my budget down to $30 for food this week. I can. I have to.