Alternative Education Program

Working at an alternative program isn’t easy. You see the students everyday and somehow they become apart of your life. You hear the stories, the jokes, the good and the bad. It can be so overwhelming. A lot of the students love that one on one connection with me and I appreciate that from the bottom of my heart. Today at work we had a new student that started a day or two ago and I have been putting my full attention solely on him. I usually work¬† with the others but State testing is coming up so the Math teacher is really just focusing on the students who will be taking the test. All the other kids are pretty much on their own and a particular student that requires most of my attention started to feel the pressure of me not focusing on him that he ended up saying really hurtful things to upset me. It got to the point where I told him I was going to tell the principal and he said he didn’t care and so I got up and told on him. What he said was really personal and I took offence to it, in my end, usually words do not hurt me but for some reason today I felt he said it because he wanted to hurt my feelings/show off in front of the new student so it bothered me that he would do that. As I went to the principal of the program I started crying and the counselor and the principal asked what happened and I explained, so he the student was sent outside to hear what I had to say to the counselor. He heard me cry, he heard me say good things about him, and how I was just SHOCKED that he would say those things and spilling it all out to the counselor was so helpful. As I got up I saw him on the couch(sitting area) and his head was down and his hands covering his face, I asked him if he wanted to talk to the counselor and he didn’t want to get up, he started crying….and that was IT for me. This student cared so much for me he felt remorse towards his actions that he started crying. What!? A student, omg I started to cry as well because I’ve never experience something so sweet in my life. How much I matter to not only him but the other students. After all this mess happened, another student came up to me and asked if I was ok and gave me a hug. I work with teenagers ok, TEENS, they are the most toughest to get along with and there they are so nice and sweet to me, they care!! I am just so blessed to have them in my life!

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December 13, 2018

I wonder if this student felt neglected or left out?¬† Teens seem to say and do not nice things to get their points across…Maybe this is the way this teenager chose to articulate their thoughts?

December 13, 2018

@jaythesmartone He did. Before the new student came in it was me focused on him making sure he stays on task and finish up his work. He had my full attention. These past few days I’ve been in and out of class doing other tasks and we really didn’t have much one on one. I really do believe that he felt left out when I was teaching the new student. I guess he expressed it the only way he knew how which is NOT ok but we talked it out after and we’re ok now!

December 13, 2018

That’s really awesome that you matter so much to all of your students. Teenagers can be tough.

I went to a private school, where our rules were stricter than most public schools, and I remember high school students back then, some of them were so mean to the teachers. I’m sure that it really means a lot to know that they think so highly of you.

December 13, 2018

@justamillennial it does mean a lot, because it feels like I am NOT making a difference with them, and I sometimes feel like they don’t care, but to my surprise these kids show real emotion to how I felt today and that is the best feeling ever!