worry
i worry so much. i don’t mean to but…it’s hard not to. i love baby and i don’t want to see anything bad happen to him/her. i find myself analyzing every little thing–does that little pain mean anything? does that little pain mean this or that? it’s exhausting. i’ve tried to talk myself out of it–there’s no sense in worrying… it won’t help…everything will be fine…but it’s hard. it was that stupid book i read. the author was so negative, so intent on talking about miscarriages and stressing that you can’t get comfortable until at least after 12 weeks. she had had 2 miscarriages and, as far as i’m concerned, she was the wrong person to write that book. they should have hired someone else to do it (the publishing company hired her to write it.) it’s good to talk about the dangers, of course, but she talked about it so much, she has me all worried now!
ugh.
if writing letters ever did any good, i would write her one. but no one ever responds to a complaint letter. and i already returned the book to the library.
anyway, on a better note. mom and i went out today. we got some cute things for baby. not too much, just a few sleepers and bibs. they were cheap so we couldn’t pass them up, right? so cute. i love sleepers. i have quite a few now. different sizes.
it stormed after mom dropped me off. i hate storms. so does my dog, which is no help to me. he’s supposed to be my protector, my comfort, and he’s just as scared as i am! it was a mild storm, but i’m scared of anything that involves thunder or lightning. that could be my grandmother’s fault. she lived through 2 wars, so when she babysat us and it stormed, she made us put on our coats and sit by the door (in order to escape easily, i’m assuming.) how could i not grow up scared of storms? plus they’re always used in horror movies, right?
d says i’m going to be a mommy so i have to get over my fear. i doubt that’ll happen.
the dog is now snoring away behind me. he just startled me with a loud snore.
what a mad house i live in.
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I get scared in T-Storms too, but I love them!! And u can never pass nething up that is remotely at a low price! lol!! And I WORRY WORRY WORRY about a LOT of things and I try not to, like I have pains, and I haven’t felt him ALL day. So yea… and I’m past 12 weeks!! I think the pain is just going to get worse as I go along and something major will be wrong and I’ll never know!! TTYL
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Everythings gonna be fine.When Ashlin was pregnant i dunno if she read sumthing like you did or not but she was real scared too.Thats no way to be , try and enjoy it.Well i dunno if u can but everythings gonna be wonderfull Damien
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And the pains can mean a NUMBER of things… gas, stretching ligaments, something wrong like apendisitis, uti, etc. Its all so confusing. So I’m right there w/ ya in the worrying.
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it is perfectly normal to be paranoid during pregnancy. it’s an automatic feeling that is triggered by you wanting to be protective of your unborn child. if you take it easy, eat well then everything should go fine… but being a nurse i see pregnant women everyday and (including myself when i was pregnant), we’re all the same, worried for baby!
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BTW: I don’t think that whole thing about people bagging out your names is true, and even if they do… so WHAT? it’s your choice, noone else’s and generally here, i find people to be respectful of the choices you make. When I did it, I put down a list of possibilities and some of the noters would so “oh i like this and this” but that was as far as it went. i had more prob’s from my mum about it!!
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if you get worried about anything going on in the pregnancy, private note me?
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oh, and BTW: 5 kilo’s is about 11 pounds??? something like that… so, only another 26 kilos and 57.2 pounds…lol
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