Well now that my dreams have been shot

I guess my best bet is to just work to pay off my debt, save up and just move back to Indy once I graduate. I don’t see how else I’m gonna  be able to care for myself even with working 2 jobs. I just wanna cry. I never had good luck here. And I don’t really wanna move back to Indy because I’ll never get the privacy I need to heal from this relationship. I didn’t get to last time and the situation living with them  itself stressed me out too. I wish I knew what to do. I guess my only other option is to just move to an extended stay hotel until I find a real job or can move somewhere. I just need alone time to grieve. I wanna leave this living situation and can’t. I’m so fucking unhappy and not how I wanted to start this year. My goals have been dashed. What do I do now Lord?? Unless I can find a full time job making decent money, I’m stuck. I hate it here!!

I think my only saving grace might be that I talk with the landlord here and see if they are still willing to work with me. I’m just so disappointed in myself. I was desperate to grab on to hope of moving out and made a mistake in calculations. I feel so stupid.