Update/catch up

Hey, long long time no write. I don’t remember if I mentioned I got a new job that pays me more, actually pays me what I’m worth so that’s great. Love it so doing good there of course you always have that one coworker who wants to slack off but better one than multiple. I’m still single, I chat every now and I connect with a few guys, but the ones that I connect with and that I want to stick around don’t stick around so yeah. I’m still hung up over this guy named Stephen that was moving from Maryland to FL to teach. We really clicked just regularly and felt it on like soulmate/bff level, but disappeared on me so had to finally let it go. Recently I had another guy that I chatted with and I tried to give itost of the conversation between me and him was sexual on his end but I need some real conversation. He talked about getting me pregnant, would I keep the baby because he wanted at least one kid blah blah blah and I’m like oh good lord. I informed him that I’m going to stay single, he was disappointed. He lived not too far we could run into each other but anyways I wish him the best of luck and I told him hey you want to text me right now and then you can but yeah he didn’t reply. Thinking about a relationship or dating gave me freaking anxiety. I don’t know if it was just him or if it’s just I’m not ready I do not know. Beyond that I have joined couple of girl online group that they get together and meet up every now and then. So I am looking forward to doing that eventually, I have to look and see when the next meet up is. I have also joined Bumble BFF which is Bumble you know it’s dating site but Bumble BFF is a site to find friends so I joined that and I have connected with a couple ladies. In the beginning I was just swiping yes everybody basically but then I decided to put in some criteria. My name sake Birthday was last week and she got herself a boyfriend, can’t believe it. I went to Mary J Blige concert and got so lucky to get upgraded from section 219 to 109. I was happy because not use to the 200s, usually in 100s. It was great time I really enjoy.