On the verge of a panic attack

I hate myself

I hate myself for wasting so much time, why don’t I learn from past experiences? I can’t seem to work without cramming (my brian doesn’t work at all when the due date is still far). So now, here I am, trying to squeeze in all the time I have just to finish my research paper.

I just prayed and meditated today, I woke up at around 6:30am.

Please pray for me and my well-being (and of course, my research).

I just have to vent out everything here. I know my friends are busy right now, they have their own lives too and I don’t wanna bother them anymore. I really do appreciate this platform and all the people trying to reach out. Thank you!!