The Final Frontier.

Status Report

Wearing: My first Metallica shirt. Yes, still. Is a shirt really that dirty after one day of wearing?

Feeling: Like I haven’t felt in ages.

WinAmp is playing: I Alone – Live

Last ate: I’m not sure what to call it. Beef and coos coos? However you spell it. I had a cookie afterwards. And I have a box of Wheat Thins next to me.

Entry Start Time: 10:10 PM

Based on Esther’s “Senses”.

Room’s almost finished being cleaned. It feels so good to sit at Lisa. Sure, I’m in a bean bag on the floor. But, it’s Lisa! I love Lisa Electron. It’s funny, even though this is dialup, Open Diary actually loads fast. Anything with graphics loads a little slower, but nothing to the point where I’ll get impatient.

I still have a lot more pics to scan. Maybe I’ll do that tonight.

My dad seems to enjoy pestering me about getting a job. No, like I’m going to sit around all summer doing nothing. If I don’t get a job, I don’t have gas money. Money = gas. Money = sex toys. Money = food. Such a novelty to be able to use paper to barter for goods and services. I think I might go try to get a job tomorrow. I .. don’t know. I’ll have to do it SOOON. It’s like everything is happening right now. It’s rather exciting.

Hairbrush said her mom said I could come and stay for graduation. (In about two weeks) Progress. So fast. I had almost resigned myself to not seeing her until her graduation party. And I’ll see her again. SOOOON. Sure, she has to check with her dad, but I think we’re going to pull this off.

It wasn’t that long ago that I felt rather disinterested in life. I wanted to sleep and never wake up. Now I wake up knowing I have things to do. Past two days, I’ve been cleaning my room. I have to get this other roll of film developed. I have to scan pictures of me and Hairbrush. I have to play Sims. I have to get a job. I have to tell Hairbrush about my day. I have to tell Hairbrush how I thought about her doing so and so.

Hairbrush. I’ve trusted my instincts on her. I glanced at my journal from a month and a half ago. I’ve felt nothing but complete confidence about us. Everything has felt right. It’s not perfect, no. But, how we handle these little bumps in the road are the reason I’m so confident. I can’t emphasis communication enough. So we’re a little sexual. So what. We’re both sexual people. It’s just so refreshing to be able to express myself the way I do with her. I know she feels the same way. There is no set way for a relationship to evolve. At the very least, we know that, despite how strong it is right now, our relationship can grow in so many ways.

Oh yeah, I’ve been meaning to post my grades. Just because.

General Physics II: C
Physics Lab: B
Discrete Structures I: C
Philosophy of Science: C
Computer Architecture: F
Religions of the Eastern World: D

I know there’s a tag to tab things, but I don’t feel like looking for it. I’m glad I didn’t give up on Eastern Religions. Ha ha. I.. um. Didn’t fail? I have to check and see what a D means.

Hairbrush gave me a Rapheal Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle action figure when we met. I must have mentioned something about my former collection, and my regret of giving them away. I have a Raphael on the van, left middle window. No, it’s doesn’t create too much of a blind spot. I went into a bin with all my old stuffed animals to get my Pound Puppy, my favorite stuffed animal. I totally forgot I had a Leonardo. He’s on the wall now, right under the Raphael Hairbrush got me. No point in taking it out of the box, right?

So yeah, where the hell am I going to work? I HAVE NO IDEA. … Hairbrush is in the same boat as me. (Her words! At least if we drown we’ll still be together?) I’ve eaten half a box of these wheat thins already? Damn. I need more milk. I could work at Hot Topic. Or some random place in THE MALL. I don’t feel like dealing with people. I could, and I know I’d get good at it. I should check the help wanted ads. Maybe try a small computer store. Do shit.

Now that school is out, Princess and I are talking more again. That makes me happy. She remembers what I was like in High School. I never want to lose touch with her. I told her all the naughty things I did with Hairbrush. Well. Not ALL. Princess is a lady in the old-fashioned sense, after all. Well, just conservative. I gave her the general idea. She said that as long as I don’t do anything evil, she’ll always be my friend. I do consider her highly among my friends for a reason. And like she said, we are getting older.

Oh, and to clean the minds of some of you out there, I DID NOT HAVE SEX. I have no interest in sex. I’m not ready, at all.

I think I got out everything I felt like saying. It feels like I’m at the beginning of something very exciting. It’s still setting in that Hairbrush is in my life. She’s slowly feeling like my girlfriend. It’ll take time, yes, but as we grow together, I’ll only feel better and better. God damn. Where the hell am I going to be in two years?