You’re Being Watched…

Hey kids, I appreciate all the notes on yesterdays entry….and I took into consideration what each and every one of you has said.  My jealousy obviously comes from a good place, know that, if that seems possible.  I think that makes sense.  I love Randy so much and I couldn’t imagine losing him or having someone else even be with him, I think that’s where my Jealousy comes from.  I just have never had someone feel this way about me or have never felt this way about someone and have never been in this solid of a relationship for this long so all of this stuff is still so new that I don’t know what to do with it.  Yes…even after like 9 months.

Blah.  it sucks.  Why is love so difficult.  My head hurts just thinking about it.

Speaking of my head…My next appointment with the Dr. is on July 17th, so I have a few things I need to discuss with him.  The first thing being the Utter Exhaustion that I am feeling.  I can’t get anything done because I am so fatigued all the time.  I just want to lay down and go to sleep.  But when I do lay down I just so antsy that I can’t sleep but for like an hour.  And my head just hurts all the gold-dang time.  And I’m so forgetful of everything.  my hands and feet are numb.  I can’t sit down for very long because my hands and feet go numb.  I have to constantly be rearranging myself.  Ugh. 

It’s like WTF dudeface.  I understand some of the side effects of the Gabapentin and the Topamax are drowsiness and stuff, but seriously this is different.  Bluh.

Anyway, I planted some Coriander Seeds in the pot where my mom had brought me my Feverfew plant, which died, I guess the trip was too much for it…and they are sprouting.  The seeds were from the little spice jar that Randy had in his Spice Rack lol.  there’s little sprouts coming up.  They’re so cute.  I noticed them earlier.  I wanna get some other seeds and plant them outside but I’m not sure what.  I also wanna get one of those upside down strawberry plants, but I think it might be too late to get one of those.  Eh…

Yesterday I did laundry.  Washed Randy’s pants and a shitload of socks and the undies.  He wears socks, I do not, most of the time lol.  so yeah.  I think I washed about 20 pairs of his socks and like 4 of mine.  I hate socks.  blah.  You know, I get very self conscious when I am folding pants.  His pants are SO much smaller than mine.  Ugh.  Makes me realize how much smaller than me he is.  Ugh my vertigo is another thing I need to talk about with the Dr.  It’s terrible.  I can’t even look at the computer screen for more than 5 minutes without getting dizzy….

We’ve been watching the Bourne Trilogy finally.  My brother lent it to us like a few months ago lol.  I vaguely remember the first one so it was good to watch it again.  It’s kind of boring compared to the other two.  but yep it was awesome.  Oh and Thursday I started my dang period ugh I was in some god awful pain so that may ALSO be why I’m a raging bitch.  LOL I think I failed to mention that part.  but STILL that just amplified my true emotions tenfold.  It didn’t help at all.  blaahhhh….

Anyway…so yeah….My title comes from the fact that you all are being monitored on my instruments.  I have you on a Tuba…lmao no, but seriously.  You all are being stalked.  By me.  You see that little counter down there at the bottom?  That is a hit counter.  Every time you guys come to my page, it marks it, and tells me how many times you guys come to my page.  Tells me where you’re from.  Tells me how long you spend on my page (more or less) and all that good stuff.  It’s pretty neato.  I like this one better than the other one I had on here.  Which, now I can’t remember the name of it…Site Map?  I don’t remember.  But yeah.  So I have a lot of visitors from all over the place.  I love it.  Lots of you come back on a regular basis and that makes me happy.  🙂 I do appreciate you all reading, but I wish i got more notes.

Anyway, whatever the case may be…here’s a map of my visitors.  The majority are from the US, a couple from Canada, a couple from Australia, Germany and Paris…