I didn’t forget about this place. I just simply tried to put words on the screen a month ago and never finished the entry. And while I could go in detail and tell the all of what has happened a small part of me just sort of feels like giving cliff notes because it’s a lot and well things aren’t nearly as bad as they once were. What I can say is that I have learned a lot about myself in the past two months, how strong I am and how I handle things. I believe my past struggles with depression and having a death hit me harder than anything to date that I have had to deal with prepared me for things later down the road. That being what happened in May.
Which getting right into that. My mom was hit by a car and critically injured. It was bad for awhile, and I didn’t even think twice to make choices about what she needed to live, which she fought hard and is alive. I don’t really want to get too into detail because a small part of me doesn’t want to document the all of what is going on and what life is right now, but its good. Progress with her is good.
Simply stated and what this entry is about is how I realize how strong I am, how far I have come since the beginnings of my finding this site years ago. It’s amazing how far I have come, how strong I am. I didn’t realize how much strength I had until this happened. I’ve said it over and over again I am prepared for a choice should I have to make it, but I am hoping I don’t. Overall the strength that I have is far more than I realized. And I have to say that I’m rather proud of myself to have come this far.