I'm a GenX, INFJ who believes in science including vaccines, BLM, Indigenous Lives Matter and LGBTQIA+, married since 2012, together since 2002; no kids (yet?); 2 kitties; own our own detatched home in the suburbs of a major Canadian city; my mom lives in an attached granny suite; hubby works full-time; freelance work-from-home for me. Health issues I deal with to varying degrees on a daily basis: depression, social anxiety disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, panic attacks, insomnia, B12 deficiency, Fibromyalgia, Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS), PMS, irregular period/horrendous cramps, baker's cysts behind both knees, Roux-En-Y gastric bypass, history of heart disease in my family.

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Chaos Walking

August 17, 2023
July 21st = miscarriage #2. End of July = appointments to confirm, etc and the rollercoaster of my hormones re-regulating. Plus, stupid in-law fuckheads doing some of their crisis melting down shit, including asking for money - which we would have sent anyway but it itches my ass that the stupid ...
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  • lil nuggets of freak-out
    July 6, 2023
    I'm exhausted but, when I go to try to sleep, I cannot. My brain is very spacey and cannot focus on one thing for too long. I am not getting very much accomplished and feeling frustrated but also indifferent. My nips are brushing on everything and annoying the sh!t outta me. I am just a…
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  • A Lot.
    July 5, 2023
    A lot has happened since my last post - and a lot of nothing at the same time. Sat around like a lump for a good 3 months; since, been hobbling around and going very slowly. I fell and broke my foot just before having to host Thanksgiving dinner for the 25+ people I didn't…
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  • More Red
    September 25, 2022
    Really thought I was preggers this month. About 5 days before I was due to get my period, I had light pink spotting - something which is not normal for me. If I get spotting before my period it is usually only the day or so before, accompanied by cramps and dark brown stringy-looking. This…
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  • Sadder than anticipated
    August 15, 2022
    The fifth baby (since quarantine) has been born today - that I probably won't get to meet for the foreseeable future. I paid $40 USD a week or two ago to have a fertility psychic tell me that I will get pregnant with a little girl in March-ish of 2023. That there may be a…
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  • I look forward to exploding due to my intake of cheese.
    May 20, 2022
    The World Health Organization met today about the outbreak of Monkey Pox afoot on the globe. I stg if MP becomes a thing, I give up. I'm just gonna sell all my shit, set myself in front of the television and order drugs and food until I literally burst. I don't want to deal with…
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  • Stupid Panini
    May 13, 2022
    Another period come and gone. We were kinda down about it. But trying not to focus on it. There are lots of reasons why pregnancy and kids would be negative to my health etc so if it doesn't happen there's likely a good reason. Not so down about it on a regular basis. Just slowly…
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  • Probs Early Menopause
    April 27, 2022
    Despite my apps telling me to take tests, the tests have been negative. Well, one looked like it kinda had a line but the following day there wasn't a stronger line so our eyes must have been playing tricks on us. Still, for the past few days I have had The Worst gas and heartburn.…
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  • Legacy?
    April 19, 2022
    This month we seem to have completed the ovulation / constant boinking process earlier than previous months. We were experiencing fatigue and soreness and some chafing so the final time we actually did a bit of a procedure instead - manual stimulation for both, then Hubby finished into a dixie cu...
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  • Curse of the Red Tide
    April 2, 2022
    Another month, another visit from the Red Tide. I took tests only when told by my app this time. Got my period in the middle of waiting for the last one to register its result. I have one left over and I'm only taking it next month IF I'm late. I am focused on trying…
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