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• Today

  August 13, 2023

  I'm still struggling with guilt, grief and everything else that comes with being a caregiver for a parent who has died. I'm in a different location than I normally would be. A few weeks ago right after the Parental Unit moved into assisted living I booked a small house just off the beach. When I&...

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• Gone

  August 2, 2023

  About a month ago the Parental Unit just stopped doing everything. Stopped showering, forgot to take medication, forgot to eat, and just wasn’t getting out of bed at all. I had been coming over almost daily and then multiple times a day to get them up, showered, fed, and make sure medications wer...

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• Missing Out

  June 18, 2023

  I watch a lot of YouTube and most of my YouTube consumption is travel vlogs by way of Overlanding. I'm blown away that people are able to make a living by traveling to all these wonderful places and documenting them all. I'm under no illusions that that type of lifestyle is not easy and what…

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• Stuff and Things

  June 3, 2023

  I found a journaling app for iOS that I've been using recently called Day One. I found it in the comments section on Reddit. So far I've been using it daily and have an 18-day streak going! It's been nice to have something that's only for me to re-read or not to if I don't…

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• How To Not Be Single

  May 29, 2023

  How does dating work now? I've been single for almost 12 years now and I think I'm tired of my own company. I just don't know how to "get back out there". All of my friends are married with kids and now grandkids and I'm *cough*mid-ish*cough* 40's with no idea what to do now. The…

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• Turning Off

  May 29, 2023

  I wish I could just turn off the worry, turn off the anxiety, the depression. Just turn off all of it...According to some family members, that's what I should do. When I ask them how do I turn all that off, what's the step by step process to do that, I just get back blank…

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• a bad few weeks

  May 20, 2023

  It's been a bad couple of weeks. I'm tired, I'm stressed and I'm overwhelmed. All the progress I made over the last 2 years losing weight, reversing my T2 diabetes, lowering my cholesterol, etc is gone. I'm almost back to the exact same spot according to the bloodwork I done yesterday. My house i...

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• Out of Control

  April 30, 2023

  A while back I wrote about being diagnosed with Type II Diabetes and how I was going to do my best to get it under control and not have to be on medication for the rest of my life. Not only did I do that but I actually reversed my diabetes to the point that…

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• Saturday. Yay.

  April 15, 2023

  I hate living for the weekends because every single time I’m disappointed by them. I can’t really go anywhere or do anything because of the Parental Unit and because I overly worry about them falling or something else bad happening. So much so that I end up doing the exact same thing *every* *sin...

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