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• Rambles

  August 30, 2021

  Everything happens for a reason. I've believed that my whole life. While we might not see the greater picture now, in time we will. Life without ups and downs would be boring. That feeling of love that makes you warm and fuzzy? Wouldn't feel as good without past heartache. So while I hate these d...

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• I Can’t Anymore..

  August 23, 2021

  It's been 5 days, out of the 10 she will be gone. I feel as if I just got my heart ripped out of my chest. I long to hear her voice.. And we aren't even dating. I hate that I feel this way about her. In 5 days, she will be home and things…

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• Out of my Hands..

  August 22, 2021

  Well, she already knew that I had feelings for her. She ended up making a joke saying "I'm just waiting for you to come out and say it.." It didn't go as bad as I thought it would. I thought it would ruin the friendship, and that we would never talk again. She even said…

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• No Regrets

  August 19, 2021

  I came to the realization that I can't live with anymore "what-if" scenarios.   I'm currently talking to "L", and I'm trying to work up the courage to tell her how I feel. I'm literally shaking over the thought of telling her, but I need to. I can't live with not knowing. I don't want…

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• Another Shot, Another Ramble

  August 18, 2021

  I'm starting new here, since I can't seem to remember my email / username from years ago. I guess that is what the Chiari does to my brain. Oh well, we all need a fresh start at some point, right? This will probably be a ramble, considering so much shit is going on in my…

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