Recent Entries

• Guh

  March 19, 2024

  Been sick, been whatever.  Today, i just messaged him and he responded and told me he was sorry, he had to sort stuff out or whatever.  But then i asked about his cancer and we had a long chat so i gave him a ton of information. Now, i know i really should not have.…

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• Sick of it.

  March 11, 2024

  Sorry i haven't written in here for awhile. Stuff on my mind though and of course nowhere to go with it. So when i was married,  my husband had brain cancer.  I helped him through it, step one and raised my son who was just a baby at the time. I did it all and…

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• Reminder to myself

  February 18, 2024

  My words of wisdom i passed on to another discussing deadbeats. I would rather have an absent parent, than the chaos of instability.  

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• Why

  February 1, 2024

  Am I remembering shit at random. I am safe, now. It's been 3 years since he left. An evening just before we were homeless and staying in a friends basement, he had accused me of dealing drugs behind his back so I had to walk in front of him, I believe this way the same…

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• Kinda whatever

  January 30, 2024

  It seems like i go back and fourth in my brain. I miss talking to him. I would like a reason it stopped after all these years. Excuses in my brain to reach out and see if hes ok. I would like maturity. I would like conversation.  He ghosted tho. I have a sad for…

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• Not in the mood

  January 28, 2024

  Well, haven't been in the mood to write in awhile. My mom is doing better but whatever she had, really knocked her on her ass and she's still not completely right. She absolute refused to go to the ER or see any doctor. Like what am i supposed to do if this happens,  again? Its…

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• Welp

  January 13, 2024

  My mom is still recovering,  and will not let me come up to her. Roommate should be home later this evening and we have a few storms on the way. Today, i plan on making spaghetti for dinner and just relaxing. I've really been craving fast food, tho. I should be snapping a few pics…

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• Alarming

  January 10, 2024

  My mom is really sick and refuses to go to the hospital and i think its mainly because she just doesn't want to do what they tell her to do. Whats even more alarming is that she said she hasn't had any food in 4 days, nor showered and can't get to the bathroom on…

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• Oh boy

  January 9, 2024

  Well, after i got my girl home from school, i made perogies and now I'm sitting here, enjoying the silence. My roommate is in south carolina working w dude out back for a week, in a hotel. I am kinda jelly, but i do appreciate the time away. I've done the everything. Laundry, cleaning,  and…

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