I am a married, middle-aged, mother of kittens, looking to understand and be understood by the world around me. I suffer from major depressive disorder and social anxiety disorder and spend a lot of time reflecting on my feelings and frustrations through the lens of those mental illnesses.

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We Are Not Okay

January 6, 2021
I don't even know what to say. I could never have imagined something like this happening in this country, and I feel like I'm having a nightmare and I wish I could just wake up. I never wanted to talk about political issues here; my diary was supposed to be a safe place for me…
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  • Unwanted Visitor
    January 5, 2021
    Today, I feel like I am a stomachache. I've spent so much of the last several years feeling sick. Pretty much every day is me being sick with something for at least a part of the day. But all day long I've been sick to my stomach. So here's my story: I met my husband…
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  • The Rice Wars
    January 4, 2021
    I don't have much to say because I've barely lived today. I got up early (which, for me, is 7am) with a headache and couldn't go back to sleep so I did a little cleaning and worked on making a grocery list for this week's shopping trip, then spent a little time with my husband…
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  • A Good Day?
    January 3, 2021
    Today has been a better day than usual. My husband and I watched Hamilton together, which I suppose I had been putting off doing because he seems completely obsessed with the music from it and has been playing the music incessantly on YouTube for nearly a year now. I knew I would want to watch&he...
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  • An Invisible Woman
    January 2, 2021
    I've been in a terrible mood for the last few weeks. I don't often get this way, but lately, I snap at my husband over stupid things, get my feelings hurt over stupid things and come out of my corner with my claws out, and shut pretty much everyone out as often as I can.…
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  • Same Old New Day
    January 1, 2021
    I don't know why it's so hard to stay awake until midnight when you mean to do it. Hubby and I watched a movie and ate some pizza last night and at 9pm, I needed a nap in order to make it to midnight. He woke me at 11 and we watched some YouTube videos…
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