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• May 12, 2020

  May 13, 2020

  I felt like a real piece of shit today. Actually, that's a lie. I felt great for most of the day, just the end was bad. I'm at a breaking point. A few days away is great but 6 hours here and I feel like I never left. I began texting friends to see if…

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• May 11, 2020

  May 11, 2020

  Aaaaand we're back. Four days removed from the situation was much-needed. I slept and drank and relaxed and worked and it was eventful. I went to work for 2 days. Became increasingly uncomfortable with the way-too-lax health sanitation situation there. Quit my job. Decided I would commit myself t...

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• May 6, 2020

  May 6, 2020

  Today, my questions are as follows:   How do you tell someone you love that you have to go away? How do you tell someone you love that you are choosing yourself, instead of them? How do you break the news, to her and to others, that you have cracked? It seems like things have…

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• May 5, 2020

  May 5, 2020

  I've been having a lot of conversations in my head with myself lately. I thought it might be good to write it out, as best as I can.   I want to get the fuck out of here. I've been here for five months now. It's time to go. What's the rush? The entire state…

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• May 2, 2020

  May 2, 2020

  10:45 p.m.: I heard her panting for a little bit, but I waited. Thought maybe she would self-soothe. But then she called my name, so I quickly, and routinely, uncrossed my legs from how they were tangled on the bed, set down my laptop, slid on my slippers, and went out the door. Five steps…

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