Recent Entries

• One Step Closer…

  March 2, 2018

  Dear “Joe”, Hello, my love. There’s no way to even begin to explain how good it feels to *finally* be saying those words to you again…my love, baby, sweetheart, honey…so long I have waited and longed to speak those words to you and more. 6 years ago, almost to the day, I wrote this: “Since…

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• Difficult Roads…

  February 25, 2018

  Often lead to beautiful destinations. I can only hope and pray that is true with Joe and I. I have been really struggling the last few days and I haven't even bothered to try to hide it. On Thursday Joe asked a few times if I was ok, what was wrong, etc. I didn't want…

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• Madness

  February 22, 2018

  Well, I have come here several days this past week to write but I have been so torn that I just get frustrated about writing and find something else to do. Joe's "give me space" words are still stinging even though he did correct himself right away...it really hurt. On Friday I decided to do…

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• Just Breathe…

  February 15, 2018

  I have spent the entire day saying this over and over to myself. At this point I just want my migraine to go away and to crawl into bed. Joe has had an extra rough day that, of course, has plunged me into the deep end it feels like. He called me 3 times today,…

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• Happy Valentine’s Day? Not.

  February 15, 2018

  Needless to say, today has been mostly pure hell. Joe had a bad day at work which made him close up a bit in the morning which made me fall apart until he ended up calling me from work to tell me Happy Valentine's Day and that he loves me. We survived our days and…

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• Perfect

  February 13, 2018

  I could dwell on the drama that pursued today compliments of another of Cruella's attempts to get him back. Or how rough it was today not talking to him through out the day like usual since we were trying to figure out what we wanted to do with texting and such. Or the drama that…

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• This Too Shall Pass…

  February 13, 2018

  Needless to say, today was a really rough day. I got a text from Joe early this morning saying that he had to deal with Cruella this morning and that "it wasn't pleasant". He video Skype'd me as soon as he got home and we talked for 5 hours. He and I are fine, of…

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• A Letter to Her!

  February 13, 2018

  Just a forewarning, this is a venting letter with explicit language that I just don't use. However, at this moment it is warranted and I am that upset! Dear Cruella, First I want to make it clear that you are his ex-wife and that isn't going to change as much as you try and, no,…

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• Theme of the Week 8: Do you believe in soulmates?

  February 12, 2018

  Yes, yes and...YES! Of course, anyone that has read any of my diary sees that word splattered all over it. I knew that I found my soulmate when I was 16yo. It has been a long journey for us to finally be together but I always knew at my core that we would be. It's…

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