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• Caleb – third time is the charm?

  January 7, 2024

  Caleb told Eric (again) today that he wants to move in with us. Caleb admitted he's been smoking again (not sure if he meant vaping or weed - but maybe both) and doesn't like the choices he's been making. He feels like he needs a reset and once again really wants to move from CA…

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• Long week

  December 1, 2023

  Eric and I managed a decent FL trip for Thanksgiving. I had my moments where it felt hard to not address the elephant in the room and I certainly made a few snarky comments. He was amazing. He usually is. My family loves him. Thanksgiving Day at Holli and Joe's was wonderful - full of…

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• Fuck

  November 22, 2023

  There’s so much to say for another post, I had a right sided thyroidectomy two weeks ago, 11/8. I’m healing. I finally have some energy back the last two days. I took two and a half weeks off work. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. I go back to work Monday. I think I’ll be physically capable of…

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• Thyroid – Cancer Worries

  July 31, 2023

  It's been a long couple of months and I still have awhile to go to figure out my health issues. Maybe 13 years ago, give or take, I had a benign thyroid nodule that was aspirated. Nothing really was required after that. My thyroid function had been normal. About 2 years ago, I had my…

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• Life and depression

  May 12, 2023

  It's been brewing for awhile now, but as everything has piled on, the last two days I have found myself in an epically large funk and depression. I've felt similar in my past. I at least know the mired of things that have piled on to cause this crushing and crippling feeling. It's officially blow...

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• Matt’s birthday

  March 24, 2023

  Today is Matt's birthday. I guess it still is your birthday, even after you've died. It's been awhile since I have cried about him. Even in therapy. I've been more angry. Maybe even moved passed that a bit and just accepted where we are at. I have had a lot of emotions and most I…

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• Ari

  March 1, 2023

  Eric and I are headed to CA on Saturday for 9 days. His middle son will celebrate his 18th birthday. I still haven't met his kids. I have told Eric he is in charge, I take his lead. I am in no rush. Although truthfully, I am scared to meet them! It feels safer being…

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• Celebration of Life

  February 28, 2023

  What is a celebration of life? a time people come together more to celebrate the unique personality and achievements of the deceased an event that focuses primarily on the life a loved one lived, and the legacy that they leave behind.  more of a relaxed and party-like atmosphere with guests atten...

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• Intrusive thoughts

  February 9, 2023

  I am at the end of the most wonderful vacation with Eric. The cruise exceeded all expectations. We both relaxed and enjoyed every moment. There is so much more I would like to write about it, but for another time. We are in Delaware currently. They last stop of our road trip north. I got…

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