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• enm

  April 14, 2024

  the cool crisp of the stillness is invigorating and the weird intrusive thoughts can finally transparent and tolerable The peace here is always here and while I can only hear the sound of electronic and motorized white noise I can hear and feel what I want to. I can remember anything I want.  I a...

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• I am fine. This is just a lot.

  April 11, 2024

  Okay

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• Nothing Better…

  April 10, 2024

  What if Sisyphus always had a choice and just always put himself behind that boulder and at the bottom of that hill? What does another go at it change? Got nothing better to do, so let’s just be miserable. I know I’m wrong just as much as I’m right. I’m just noticing my pain any…

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• totality

  April 8, 2024

  /You can go wherever you want/ Is it worth doing alone? This is killing me

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• On my favorite idea from “The Expanse”

  April 3, 2024

  It’s a rest stop on a busy highway in Maine. I sit in a surprisingly clean bathroom stall unable to breathe because the question the request still remains I knew my answer the second it was asked and yet I still asked for time. I think I’m in shock from not the issue but at…

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• Surrogate

  April 1, 2024

  The problem with honesty and openness is that you have to be honest and open. Also you have to be willing to get that in return. So, a question is posed and in its asking, your fears are both realized and soothed. it /is/ that but its not /that/ and,honestly, I think I’m okay with…

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• Water weight

  March 19, 2024

  Lazy pain in stretched moments of waste it meanders and sways in a miasma of anxiety and dread but the colors are nice and the smells trend towards pleasant. so sit a spell and try to relax. We’ve got nothing better to do  

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• oS

  March 17, 2024

  It's 1152 and I look at the hole in my phone where the app used to be. It's 1152 and I reflect on what I wanted and what I needed and what I got. It's 1153 and I regret. It's 1153 and it might have made me a better person if I could have just…

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• B and LG

  October 8, 2023

  this is about death and titles memories and archetypes to function. To Love. He isn't him her is not She loves to sleep and asks permission to do anything, while I couldn't stop her from anything. I couldn't take him anywhere and he's the same. I love him I love her. I loved them all.…

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