Recent Entries

• Hey…

  July 29, 2013

  I'm okay. I'm sorry I haven't written an entry. I just haven't had time to write one.  When I say "okay", I mostly mean alive. But, I dunno, I feel pretty much like shit right now, and I have no idea how to fix that... Oh well. I shouldn't whine to a bunch of people…

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• 06/04/2013

  June 3, 2013

  goobye.

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• 05/29/2013

  May 28, 2013

  I just want to belong somewhere. Why is that so hard for me? Why can't I just find somewhere that I can always come home to that loves me?

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• I’ll be honest,

  May 27, 2013

   If I wasn't afraid that I wouldn't get into heaven after suicide, I would have killed myself months ago. That is the only thing keeping me from it at this point. And I'm afraid that, one day, not even that will be enough.

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• A letter.

  May 27, 2013

   Before I get started, just let me point out that the below entry is a letter to a friend that stopped talking to me over a year ago. We were very close; she was my whole world. I dedicated time and energy to her that no one else has ever gotten. This may seem almost…

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• Not on Mother’s Day.

  May 11, 2013

  I can't kill myself on mother's day. No matter how much I hate myself and want to. No matter how much I need to get out. I can't do that to my mother...not just two days after her birthday...not on mother's day...

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• I admit it.

  May 10, 2013

  I miss Yai. I miss my world. I miss her weird antics and her strange viewpoints in life and her manic-depressive personality and the way she gets way too attached to fictional characters and the way she called me "hers" and go jealous of anyone who she felt could interfere with tha...

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• A short entry

  May 4, 2013

  Please, God, please don't let me wake up tomorrow.

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• So, it’s all been cleared up.

  April 29, 2013

   I finally gave in and talked to Hannah about Lexi, and she admitted to faking it and Lexi not being real. There are a lot of little details that I don't really want to get into, and, as much as I feel I should be angry, I'm just relieved that the truth is out.  The only…

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